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♥ Tuesday, March 29, 2005♥

i need miracles in my life in the last few days but they missed me.. heaven dun love me i the way i hoped he had actually loved me.. leaving tjc is totally a mental torture for me and i need some gd aspirations at this pt to contd moving ahead.. tiem might nt necessarily heal my wounds.. i need yr help guys. miracles.. somehow i really dun think i shld believe in them anymore..no more last chances..no more wishes but more of a desire.. life must go on with ot without tjc.. i must move on.. hw long will i take to adapt.. i dunnoe.. just today i elt so lost in ny as i dunno where to attend lec, hw to photocopy and stuff.. i feel so lonely and lost and get so teart again.. when i feel lonely and lost, my only comfort is him.. his touch ,his hugs and his tender loving care are now my only motivation to contd in life.. let's pray that life settled in quickly for me..
to xinhui, i am so sorry that i din wish u happy bdae on 22 march.. i was too engrossed and upset with my life.. my life came tumbling in one nite and i need more courage, time and effort to rebulid it.. please pardon me.. wish u all the best in tjc..
life.. thank you for givin me him.. he is my love and my soul and my hope and motivation in life..


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