sUnSHiNE aFt rAiN

CEO, ACCT and HR ask INTERNS to go

2009-07-28T13:34:00.004+08:00

how does it feels when yr accounts exec, HR exec and even yr company's CEO ask you to leave yr internship early??

hmmm ambivalent?

haha..

1. i dunno how it will be reflected on our internship appraisal.
2. What will my future employers think? "what you left your internship earlier? when other people are being asked to extend their internship -.-"

3. One week's pay of $120 is gone( its a lot considering i spent $545 recently)

and wats the cause of me and my other intern frenz joel leaving? Coz we have there is nothing for us to do in office and we are given 1 task a day and left to rot for the day.

so the HR and accts exec saw that we are too free to be true. Which is why they reflected to our boss and ask us to leave earlier -.- now i know why recently my HR kept asking me to help her scan paper, help her refill photocopier papers.

Wells, it might be a good thing since we have nothing to do. Taking one week off earlier would be better to rest at home and stuff -.-

but so much for the $545 spent, i very much wanted to earn that one week's money >.<
and my supervisor, see hau, told me too bad. company want cut expenses -.-

then i told him. next time dun hire intern la, just hire an admin staff to help(considering the fact that what we are doing are mostly filing, adhoc work, paper work) -.-

wells.. lets see if there is anything i can do to earn some money during the remaining 2 weeks before school starts.

Meanwhile i am going to set up a new diary to blog about my facial treatment. to monitor the progress of my skin.. and also set up a new blog for my dieting...

good la.. end 1 week earlier. then i have 2 weeks to slim down before school starts :)

my gd frenz who asked me to enjoy my decision.

2009-07-28T10:48:00.004+08:00

made a wrong turn in life.
took up at $545 New york skins soln package in less than 15 mins.

Its a 6 session revitalising session. Will it work? i dunno. but i am waivered by the consultant's word.

$545 = 3/4 of my monthly pay
= tix + hotel + travel fare for 1 person on my vietnam trip

Everyone said i am too impulsive and ask me to sell my package la. next time must think properly la..

onli peifen is the best :)

she told me to enjoy since i already paid. :) if i pay le still sad over it, then really waste money :)

so glad to have such a positive friend around :)

must commemorate such a gd frenz :)

for ah ming's 26th

2009-07-20T23:13:00.003+08:00

2009-07-17T10:26:00.001+08:00

wahah.. so i am not alone... i realise my other intern friend is also doing and sleeping at the same time.. wahahha

its just me complaining again. blah just let me let off the steam

2009-07-17T10:20:00.000+08:00

“you cannot do your due diligence like that one. Everytime you say u cant find i can find. You must really go and dig out the details from the website one. I need more information than this article.” These are the words that the as usual mean supervisor said to my intern friend.

Yes yes, it’s just me expressing my unhappiness again.

For your information:
Due Diligence is a term used for a number of concepts involving either the performance of an investigation of a business or person, or the performance of an act with a certain standard of care. It can be a legal obligation, but the term will more commonly apply to voluntary investigations. A common example of due diligence in various industries is the process through which a potential acquirer evaluates a target company or its assets for acquisition

In our case, we are supposed to do due diligence on our potential partners and customers. However, the thing about these clients and partners was that many of them are in developing countries like countries in the caspian sea and southeast asia, where the companies are still unwillingly to provide information on their website/no website available or simply just a doggy company. In such cases, it is really up to us to dig out information from the World Wide Web.

Due to the small scale of this company, they did not invest in any web databases where we can tap into information specific to our industry. Many a times we found some relevant article, but we do not have access to the article as it is a paid article. Hence, it is seriously not easy at times to search for details lest to say contact numbers.

So I do not see why sometimes he has to be so mean in his words. And probably he could have taught us how to search for information too. We are like literally throw into无底洞 and expect us to climb up and get a solution. Ya we will learn from this. Learn how to search for information and stuff on our own. But if its not up to his standard then i think he should tell us how to improve and not just go redo on his own based on what he has and claim that he is doing better than us. When i did not even get to see what the hell he has changed and amend. He merely just told me “your due diligence is ... ya.. you better look at mine” then he just scroll down on his microsoft word and expect me to see the changes. So much for spotting the difference game rite. I always fail at spotting the difference can.

Rah! Dun like.

why got such guys around. u tell me?

2009-07-16T16:32:00.000+08:00

Today is the day that i ask my boss why is it that we should ask questions like why is it that we should ask “are you pregnant?” and “how many kids you have?” in an interview. As to me, these questions are additional barriers of discrimination to a woman especially. And guess what my cold blooded supervisor say, “Well, this is reality, we must put one. Every company is doing it. Sorry.” Mind you. His sorry is not apologetic sorry ok. Its sorry this is reality there is nothing that i can argue about that kind of tone.

I felt v angry. Like does that means that every company is doing it then it justify why we are doing it. Doesnt Mom Tripartite say that we should not practise discrimation. So what if he is a man? A man can practise discrimination to a woman who is pregnant la? Emotions totally flooded me coz my impression of him is that he is insensitive and cold-blooded.

Then i went to ask my HR the same question. I think as a woman she answers better. She did quote reality as well. But she illustrate it with an example such as hiring a woman for a project. If the woman is away for maternity leave at a crucial period of time then maybe they wont hire her now but may consider her later. Its by a case by case basis, she said. She also explains that the reason why we wanna ask how many kids they have is becoz it affects the person’s no of childcare leave to take.. At least this sounds less discriminating to me. Well at least it goes out to show that textbook theories on ethics can only go so far.

Still.. that boss is damn reality driven. Yes and the reality to him is that he has no gf for the past 26 years. You wonder why.

still feels damn angry towards this ego's man's attitude towards women. u just pray yr wife dun fall into such discrimination.

i feel damn wu gu

2009-06-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

below is a whole junk of words on how i feel

think for so long to go on a trip for my birthdayand just because i misunderstood her meaningwhen she sayduring her birthdayduring mothers dayshe say she dun wan go out eatactually wat she meant was tt she wan me to save the money so that i can treat her for her bdaebut i understand she dun wan to go out and eat during mothers dayso we eat in lono go out eatthen she start to sayi have poor intepretation skillsshe already say v clearly when she dun eat during mothers daymeans she wan meet to treat her during her bdaebut i dun understand she means manow she say its my faulti trying to arguedun wan treat herthen she start to saysay i wan go vietnamtt timeis say i wan save money to treat everybody to goi am only an intern where got so much money to treat everybody to gowhole familywhere goti treat my mei mei to goalready no money liao lethen now she argue with mesay i say wronglythen she sayshe v unhappy tt i misintepret her for the mother's day thing

now she dun wan let me go vietnameverybody dun gon she dun give a chance to explain what she misinterpret for the vietnamshe just keep talkin and talking and dun let me explainthen run overshe go n diego n diei v angryshe is in the wrong in nt explaining properlythen she still scold menext time i go workthen dun undz my boss meaningthen howargue like how i argue with her izzitsay i keep arguingwhen its true that she nv say properlythen she also in wrongi also nv ask herso i in wrongthen she can ban me from going overseasjust because she think she cancoz she holds to my passporti cant fly overseasthen my dad come in say

why must i be so agitatedbutit nt entirely my fault mashe has lao ren chi daishe dun rmb wat i saidthen she puts into my mouth sayin tt i will pay for everyone on a vietnam trip mathen she cant rmb wat i saythen she THINK of wat i saythen come n blame me and hold me responsible for things i din sayand dun let me go vietnam tripwhen i look forward to it so muchfor my 21st bdae =.=how can i be not agitated at alli am not even given a chance to explain myself

2008-02-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

RIP Ah Meng, We will always remember you...

The iconic orang utan died today.. sob sob.. no wonder didnt see her at the zoo today.. sob sob... this is so saddening..

Ah Meng, icon of Singapore Zoo, dies of old age By Hasnita A Majid, Channel NewsAsia Posted: 08 February 2008 1828 hrs SINGAPORE: Ah Meng, the Sumatran orang utan that was considered an icon at the Singapore Zoo, died on Friday. She was 48 years old and had likely died of old age. In 1971, Ah Meng was confiscated from a family which had illegally kept her as a pet. She then found her home at the Singapore Zoo. Ah Meng was the first to host the zoo's famous 'Breakfast With An Orang Utan' programme. She soon became a celebrity, both locally and internationally. She had been featured in over 30 travel films and 'interviewed' by more than 300 writers. In 1992, Ah Meng received a special award from the Singapore Tourism Board in recognition of her contribution towards tourism in Singapore. Ah Meng also contributed to the Singapore Zoo's captive breeding programme. She had five children and became a grandmother in 1990. The Zoo will hold a memorial for Ah Meng before the burial on Sunday at 11am.

Feb 8, 2008

S'pore's favourite Orang Utan, Ah Meng dies
THE Singapore Zoo's most famous and well-loved Orang Utan, Ah Meng has passed away on Friday due to old age. She was approximately 48 years old.
She was born in Sumatra, Indonesia around 1960 and came to the Zoo in 1971 when she was about seven years old after being confiscated from the Chinese family who had kept her as an illegal pet.
In 1982, Ah Meng's big break came when she became the star attraction of the Zoo's 'Breakfast with an Orang Utan' programme.
The loveable Orang Utan rose to fame quickly, and has been featured in numerous travel films and print articles.
In 1992, Ah Meng became the first and only non-human recipient of the Singapore Tourism Promotion Board's (STB) Special Ambassador award for her contributions.
In her lifetime, Ah Meng has also rubbed shoulders with foreign dignitaries and famous celebrities including Prince Philip and Michael Jackson.
The Zoo's curator, Mr Alagappasamy (aka Sam) has taken care of Ah Meng since she first came to the Zoo.
He is extremely saddened by her departure and though it may 'take a long time' for him to adjust not having her around, he is 'very happy to have had the opportunity to take care of Ah Meng and her family all these years'.
Group CEO of Wildlife Reserves Singapore, Ms Fanny Lai said: 'We mourn the passing of Ah Meng. She has touched the hearts of everyone who has met her and contributed immensely in helping promote awareness of how each and every one of us can play a role in anti-poaching, anti-deforestation and conservation matters'.
Ah Meng leaves behind two sons Hsing Hsing, Satria, and two daughers, Medan and Sayang and six grandchildren.
She will be reposed at the Zoo's Garden with a View from 9-11am on Feb 10 where the public can visit her for the last time. Her memorial service will take place shortly after at 11am.

2008-02-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

This looks black n disgusting but it is very nice!!
It is called french onion soup :P

yummy fish n chips with mussels @ only $13.90 tgt with soup n drink!!! i simply love this combi especially eating it with the butter rice.. Yum yum!!

CNY REUNION LUNCH AT MANHATTEN FISH MARKET!! @ The Central Clarke Quay

The Cuties Family Photos!!

A family reunion!!!

2008-02-04T00:02:00.000+08:00

i want more of chocolates please!!! snickers snickers.. more more..

i feel the new year hols atmosphere feeling me.. no mood to mug le..

happy new year! gong xi fa cai!

2008-01-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

i cant stop sneezing.. sick le la.. still doing this kind of crap online.. blogging.. gotta get on with life.. creative thinking project.. filming editing meetings homework presentations.. clear one at a time.. watch le grand chef soon.. so many things on my mind when wat i really want is for my body to rest n recover from the flu..

2008-01-21T23:01:00.001+08:00

i am soooooo sianz.... projects... meetings... homework.. assignments.... readings... rah!!!

2008-01-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

woots today went to the gym and went for M.I.C free vocals lessons.

what did i take back today?

1. the appropriate way to breathe.-- use your diahpragm. Breathe in a way tt your shoulders dont move, but your tummy comes out.

2. dictation

3. articulation-- bite your words. sing chinese songs with your mouth wide and sing english with your mouth in an "O" shape.

4. Projection-- open your mouth wide enough so that 2 of your fingers can go in. use projection from your throat area, dun let the feeling makes your nose numb.

5. Needa emphasise on certain words in the lyrics. read out the lyrics and circle the words which has a stronger emphasis and note them.

6. there are 5 main parts to a song, intro, verse,chorus, bridge and ending.

7. overcome your fear when singing.. haha.. something that is so hard!!! haha..

well, what a week.. more works are piling up and i definitely need to learn to balance everything, at the same time, get sufficient rest.. -.-" tough job huh..

so long!! i am waiting for next friday where i can go gym(hopefully) and have time for M.I.C..

2008-01-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

i am feelin extremely tired and lazy these days.. i dont know why. i just dont have mood to do anything but to be glued to my computer to surf some shopping blogs or livejournals or simply to google for something stupid like hello kitty cursors.. anyway i cant find any...none is compatible with my laptop system i guess. no idea why.

i need to find the motivation and the concentration to complete my work fast n efficiently..

i hope that i can find it soon ..

2008-01-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

reach beyond what you can grasp....

complacency marks the death of stretching one's full potential...

think big because you dont know how far you can stretch your potential..

arent these words motivating and inspirational.. they are just what i need in this hectic uni life. i must constantly remind myself of all these...

for all my frenz who needs some motivations too.

2008-01-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

i am looking for the right pair of shoes.

someone ever says that searching for the right partner is as difficult as searching as a right pair of shoes.

and i say that searching for a right pair of shoes is as difficult as searching for the path to heaven.

dont get me wrong, i am not referring that searching for the right partner is as difficult as searching for the path to heaven. no, i am not talking about relationships here, i am really talking about find the right pair of shoes.

it just seems so hard to find a pair of comfortable shoes that suit all occassions. Like when i wear a skirt, dress or dark coloured jeans, i will have to wear covered shoes or sometimes heels. these heels and covered shoes are simply tortuous. i have blisters everywhere and i will have to walk in mini steps.

today i wore a new pair of mondo covered shoes and shopped for the whole afternoon, so by evening i was literally tiptoeing my way home.ouch, my whole feet hurts. i really want to look for a comfortable of shoes that suit most occassions. probably i should invest in a pair of hivannas or birkenstock, which literally suits most occassions.

seriously, i think i will be in flats the next few days. that shoe is a killer. both my nails on my pinkie turn blue black due to the pressure applied by the hard shoes.

my feet deserves less scar n blisters so i am going to search for a nice pair of shoes.

meanwhile, my to buy list will be:

a shoe bag(i broke mine last friday)
mini post it( i need those real mini kinds for my marking of pages)
A NICE PAIR OF SHOES!!! ( something really comfortable and nice; it must soft on the heels, the pinkie and the "palm" of the feet)

school work is piling.. wish me good luck.. friends.. do drop by to motivate me frequently as i sometimes really feel that it is pointless to study.. keep the fire in me..

i wish that there is something that motivates me to do everything

2008-01-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

school has started for 4 days now..

lots of works n lots of readings to do... i am getting busy n busy with all those projects and stuff.. ooo how i miss holidays...

yeah.. thank god tml is friday and weekend is just round the corner :)

2008-01-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

很不愉快的 1/1/2008

everything starts with the countdown chalet i guess... when one of guys snapped at me when i was making the cheese prawns, " wah lao dun make so many cheese prawns leh. alot of people here dont eat cheese one. lyk A,B and C. his tone was so bad that i could feel the stinging feeling in my eyes. luckily my bf was around to speak up for me. in the end the cheese prawns got wasted, coz i realsied guys dun lyk to eat cheese. but thats not all, that guy who was rude, lets call him W, was super fierce. When i was putting butter on the satays, Guy G says dun put butter on satay coz satay already has its own flavour. But just as he finish, W:" Wah lao dun put butter on satay leh it will tast super bad"(note, in a dunno why pissed off tone)
i feel so useless so i just walked away. but i felt so bad n unhappy about the whole thing already. I was v bored there, since all the people there are above 21, except for the little kid, plus all of them brought their gfs but all the guys are talkin about FYP!! at the bbq pit..

"hey u handed up yr draft for FYP?" "no la, only first draft."

Then comes guy S, which makes the whole feeling worst, like i have to siam him or subconsciously with siam him or ignore him liddat. then when he is around, ah ming cant go over to talk to the boys. for the whole night, i kept feeling like a sinner. Its like because of me, Guy S and ming fell out. Its like the very good guy feels that i have been playing with the 2 guys. but it wasnt the case. is Guy S gave up on me, then ah ming chased me, why pick on me like i played with the 2 guys.

Then, i keep on have the feelin that ah ming is throwing me away when i was giving him a nice hug at the chalet. i mean all his frenz are hugging so openingly with their gf, cant i give my bf a nice hug since all of them are so open about it. but no, not the case to my bf. Keep on have the feelin that he was shifting away when i hugged him. Ok maybe i shudnt be there in the first place since i was the only one who didnt stayed overnight when all the rest did and i caused so much trouble for people. and my poor bf gotta see other people play couple games when his gf is not there. ya i am a sinner.

Then the another sad part comes, ah ming never send me home coz i scared tt he has no transport back later. but it was a lonely ride home from tampiness to home, and my damn phone broke down when i left the mrt. It cannot read the SIM card then i couldnt call home. I was so scared coz there were alot of banglas and there were banglas making those stupid smooching sounds at me. i was so scared that i wanted to cry.. coz i dunno wat to do.. feelin sad and bad, i wanted to call my bf after bath. but he gotta play games and couldnt answer my call. i start crying badly after that coz i was feelin lyk so bad and there is no one there to turn too.. seriously.. i felt sad.

The gloomy feelin was brought forward to the next morning, and i was putting on a sad face. I think its just my luck. i am down on luck. my parents start to scream at me and when i put on a sad face when they bought me the wrong drink. I mean usually they will just ask me to buy a new drink, but tdy they said" 你不要过分啊，没有人得罪你啊。”then they start to throw temper and my ma starts to dig out all the history to scold me at one go.. just my luck... crying seems to doesnt help now.. maybe its because i didnt cry enough... i just feel super sad.. but.. i just got no one understands.. and no one can help me.....

songs that i listen when i am sad..

2007-12-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

i went to Prima Tower Revolving Tower restaurant today! haha it is one of the two revolving restaurant that is left in singapore. the other one is Top of the M.

haha but though it sounds like an impressive place, it doesnt look as impressive as it seems. The restaurant is located among the ports and therefore, its entrance looks like a container warehouse or a prima deli factory instead. lots of container trucks of lorry filled the car parks as we made our way to the restaurant. The restaurant is at the 11th storey but the lift service is only available from the 1st to the 9th storey. The lift looks abit run down n creaky, and there are only 2 buttons, 1 and 9, and open n close buttons on the lift. After, we proceed to the next 2 levels by escalator n stairs. The escalator reek of urine smell that is very unpleasant and i had such a bad impression of this so-called high class restaurant.

The "Grand" Entrance

As we got there pretty early, we were lucky enough to get those seats near the windows. the view from the revolving tower is splendid and not to forget that the scenery beside me changes every min as the place turns.

yet the staff werent that pleasant. especially this waitress.

well, the food is alot pricier than outside. one plate of dim sum cost about $5 and the bill came as $95.10.not so affordable huh. seriously, the food is not worth the price. 126 taste so much better and i can eat at 126 twice at this price!! haha..

but forget about the price, let's take a look at the food they served.

Chee chong fen with youtiao(weird!!!)

Now take a little look at the scenery taken as the tower turns. See how different it is to look at the buildings from the top instead of from the bottom.

My fat Sis enjoying her meal.... -.-"

me kena forced to take a picture.

haha.. to say, this prima tower is seriously overpriced and what we paid is for the scenery i guess. haha. anyway this restaurant actually provides wedding packages.i seriously wonder who will wanna come to this place for a wedding. the packages are overpriced and the restroom looks like a 3 star hotel's restroom. :I this place is not for me.. haha..

2007-12-29T23:32:00.001+08:00

some thing that is really nice!!! try this and you wont regret!

i just want more....yum :P

2007-12-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

i just rebonded and coloured my hair!!!

haha.. i sat almost 6 hours in the salon just to do my hair and guess what, my hair is only shoulder length!! not some kind of long hair goddness who needs to rebond her super long strands of hair.. so u guys should have imagined how long i waited for each process to be complete.well, i actually did colouring too, which might have explained the longer time spent.

to those who have not done any form of rebonding or colouring before, let me show u the various steps of how its done.. (sorry iwas simply too bored n stiff in the chair :I)

STEP 1: Wash your hair
STEP 2: Add some straight cream with the help of some paper.. Tatah.. there.. i look lyk a zombie.

STEP 3: they will wash your hair then blow it dry.. then they will start to clip it with the magic clipper to flatten those mane.

STEP 4: they add some straight cream again. this time, they put the magazine paper at the front, the back and the two sides, which makes me felt a little lyk an egyptian.

STEP 5: They will finally wash my hair again and prepare for colouring. i choosed a new colour called violet red instead of my previous colour light copper :)
and they dress me up lyk an alien with funny plastic ears and made my hair really sticky. its kindof uncomfortable to have all those cream on my head, as it felt lyk tiny little ants biting on my scalp.

Then finally they will wash, dry and cut my hair.. before charging me a astronomical price of $170, after a 30% discount, then $119.. boo... i just felt that its so not worth it for them to charge such a price, when they actually cut my hair to shoulder length!! i think they actually cut about 3 inches, since my hair used to at my bra :I and all those waiting time makes me sick and hungry, considering the fact that i actually sat from 1130 to 5.. thats soooo long... n i went to grab my linner straight after that.(linner = lunch + dinner)

haha so for those who have never done any sort of hair rebonding, perming or colouring before.. please do note that there will be tons of chemicals in your hair and u must have several hours to spare. Always take care of yoru hair after such treatments. Note that you shudnt wash yr hair within 2 days after your hair service, and do not tie yr hair for 2 weeks. and sadly to say, in that 2 days which u cant wash your hair, you will smell lyk u have just walked out of a laboratory.. u will smell lyk a bottle of chemicals.. and the chemicals used in hair treatments, like steaming and such really look lyk those blue n green clear solutions that u see in einstein's office..

this is an example of all those tiny bottle of chemicals..

cant show u guys how i look now coz i simple look lyk an egg with a straight red mop on my head.. haha..

2007-12-25T02:24:00.000+08:00

MERRY XMAS TO ALL!!!!

haha i am back from a night's drinking,gathering and gaming with my lone soc members and a few other people who we knew!!i truly enjoyed the spirit of craziness and the atmosphere of a fun xmas!!! thanks tracy and shawn and ming who agreed to go out with me on xmas eve and make my xmas eve soooooo enjoyable and thanks to jiamin,dean and all who came along and make it even more fun...

wait till i get more pix from tracy tan haha...

the asylum is quite a cool place with nice cocktails and such.. think i better blog more about this tml after i feels more sober.. HAPPY XMAS AND MERRY NEW YEAR :p

2007-12-17T23:27:00.001+08:00

KALLANG LEISURE PARK NOW OPEN!!!

do remember the olden days where there were ice skating centres available in jurong and kallang leisure park? do you remember the times where we easterners have to travel all the way to jurong entertainment centre just for ice-skating? Fear not! the kallang ice world is back and kallang leisure park is now open!

located near the stadium, the kallang leisure park has re opened since beginning december. though many stores are not opened and many outlets are under renovation, it is a good time to visit kallang leisure park as you can have a lot of ice skating space(it is still quite empty unlike fuji ice palace which is sooooo crowded!! >.<), nice bowling and a pretty empty food court" Kou fu". the main attraction i would say, will be the kallang ice world. As it has just begin its operations, the place is really empty in the afternoon and evening.. all ice skaters, noobie and experts alike can safely skate all they want in kallang ice world. If you are not a skater, feel free to visit the bowling alley which is also pretty empty.i am not saying that they wont have business, but i am just saying that this is a good time to enjoy that personal space in the ice skating floor before the crowd hits the area during the official opening and then try skating and dodging 5 other skaters at the same time.

Well, this place is good EXCEPT!!!! there is no ATM in this entire building!!! *faints.. we were so cash strapped today when we realised that there is no ATM in the whole building. So we have to cough up $48 for the ice skating session for 3 and was left with peanuts for dinner. i threw out all my coins and ming took out the only $5 he is left. then the 3 of us have $9 for dinner. It is not that bad since we managed proper meals but we were pretty thirsty as we dont have enough money to get another drink. So whats the moral of the story?? Bring more cash if you intend to spend half a day at Kallang Leisure park!! haha...

Back to the movie of the day, THE GOLDEN COMPASS, a story filled wiht action and excitement.The compass tells the truth and tells the beholder what she wants to know. A story that is liken to NARNIA and fanatsy lovers will love this show.. the not so good thing about the movie is that there is no ending, which means they intend to have a seqial.personally i give 3 stars out of 5. go watch it if you have time.

2007-12-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

Mango sales!!!

Its time of the year for Pre Xmas Sales!!! Price begin from $19!! Get to your latest Mango today!!

Haha i just bought a real comfy Mango shirt today at only $19( when the shirt was supposed to be $??)i swapped the price tag with a $19 one because i couldn't find the price tag for my shirt.. oh well.. its not v ethical i would say but it helps me to save money!! :)

Queen of Queens at St James Powerhouse

2007-12-16T00:06:00.001+08:00

i am home from a night at St jame powerhouse though i ran off halfway with Tracy Tan( before i even know who won in that event >.<) anyway it is quite a fun event with FREE FLOW OF drinks, free instant shots by Canon and Hoyu, Free manicure, Free Wall's ice cream and lots of free fun, music and entertainment. me and tray helped ourselves to 2 glasses of alcohol in just half an hour and almost got ourselves drunk. but we were lucky to be able to walk out of St james safely and steadily -.-"
i did the sally hansen free manicure too though i destroyed the masterpiece in just 10mins after the manicure -.-"

the contestants were decked in bright lego colours, which shall be the next fashion statement in the year 2008( so girls, start packing yr wardrobe with lots of lego colours!) well the questions they were made to answer were rather.. mmm... politically correct? they asked question like, what will you do to protect the environment? -.-" oh well...

Well, little bitching to do over here. That bouncer at st james didnt believe that i am the person in my IC! he made me read otu my NRIC no, my birth date and my home address..oh my...

more bitching... as the saying goes, birds of the same feathers flock together... haha.. i saw this couple from my school at the event and i just cant keep myself of thinking.. what a great couple from heaven HAHAHAHA.. the girl was one of the contestant from "Xiao hua xiao cao" programme on Ch U, and she was BOO-ed on during the recording of the programme. The guy was the loser at FTB camp, who dont even dare to wash toilet and was always away when there was shit job for him to do... HAHA.. losers of the world united >.<

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2007-12-11T14:13:00.001+08:00

2007-12-09T12:06:00.001+08:00

http://www.crunchyroll.com/showmedia?id=214608

2007-10-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

2007-08-04T23:24:00.000+08:00

Happy 3rd Mth Ming!!!

Its our 3rd mth today!!!

it has been 3 mths of joy, love, support, care and understanding and learning with each other.

We been thru the end of my days in elite, the day which i actually signed up for FTB on yr bdae, the day which i changed my FTB so tt i can be there for u on yr bdae, 3 days apart when i am in Bondue camp, 3 days without contact on msn, sms, or call when u are in msia, 2 hrs of arguing when we cant decide where we wanna go for yr bdae, 1 nice and heartwarming day spent for yr bdae!, many many days which u spent to send me home after dominoes laying, 1 night and 1 night's cab fare when i am so tired, all the support n love on that night which warms my heart that i will rmb forever, many many more days spent together........

even thought i kept critising yr lunchbox, i still lyk them lots =)

thanks ming... for everything....

I am Still Alive..

2007-07-31T23:26:00.000+08:00

hey guys, i guess you guys miss me coz i haven been blogging for many many days and i am finally blogging today. *sweeps off the cobwebs*

I guess you are wondering what i have been busy with, actually, for the pure sake of completing my 80hrs of CIP, i joined this project named DOMINOES OF DREAMS. However, it was such a fun and meaningful project that i really enjoyed and learned from this project. The main objective of this project is to raise fun for our 3 beneficiaries, and to lay 50, 000 dominoes for the last week. We get a chance to visit one of our beneficiaries, which is the Blue Cross Thong Kuan home, which is the home for the intellectually disabled. i was scared initially and i was totally against the idea of visiting their home. the usual fears came to me; are they going to be hostile? are they going to be weird? will i be treated differently? is it really going to be an " eye-opening" experience for me? but my fears are gone when i reach there as i realised that they are just very friendly people. They are adults with a kid's mind, they are like very friendly young children wanting to know you more. they will shake your hands when you come and invite you to dance with them. Many of them looks like normal adults but they will still call me" jie jie, jie jie" some are down with down syndrome and have difficulties expressing themselves. At the home, i met a rahter rough aunty who you can relate to the "primary school boss" coz she loves to show that how pro she is, another aunty held my hand and told me" let's go dancing, let's go dancing." , while another young girl, down with down syndrome, simply pointed to the scalded scar on her hand and look at us, just as if she is telling us that it was a painful scar. Some of them are more normal and their conditions are more stable, so we are able to bring them out for walks. yong xiang is the person we brought out and he held my hand and shu min's hand super tight. He is a girl lover, as he will only hold girl's hand but not the guy's but i guess that he is still a kid at heart.

After this trip, i realised that they are a butch of people that are forgotten by the society. Have you ever seen deformed babies on documentaries? Can you imagine them growing up to be as tall as you are? yes, they are commonly seen in the home too and i am impressed not just by their caregivers but also their will to survive. Instead of giving up on life, they live their lives to the fullest. In their innocent world, they enjoy singing and dancing, playing badmintons or simply going for walks. I am impressed by their talent when it comes to singing as they are able to sing out the words in the lyrics, if you think that intellectually disabled people = idiots then u must be an idiot yourself. They can memorise lyrics and sing them to the correct tune. I am impressed.

The other was a talk by Disabled People's association ,as we all know, the government has been trying their best to provide whatever we can to help the disabled, but no one ever questions if they are doing it right. if you ever noticed, the transport nodes laid on the floors for the blind of the NEL mrt stations are laid in the centre of the station? try closing your eyes and imagine that you are a visually disabled with the stick, would you prefer to have a wall for a support? but sadly , the transport nodes for the NEL stations are built in the middle of the station, which will greatly affect the visually disabled which might be knock down by the rushing crowd. And in this talk we are also told that it is ridiculous to ask a person" aunty why are u in a wheelchair ah? leg got problem ah?" coz the answer you are most liking gonna get is, " oh i am feeling a bit lazy today so my daughter is pushing me around." Basically, we have taken care of the hardware but not the software. Instinctively, when we see someone in a wheelchair, we try to help them. But never insist on helping them with a wheelchair if they reject your offer as they are trying to be as independant as we are. Remember this : NEVER USE WHEELCHAIR BOUND!! IT SHOULD BE WHEELCHAIR USER. THEY ARE NOT TIED TO THEIR WHEELCHAIR AS THEY ARE ONLY USING IT.
Some cool terms i learn though hahah..

anyway now i shall talk more about the laying of DOMINOES!!! it was the most meticulous and careful periods of my life as you hardly sees me doing things carefully. however, i was so careful and trying all my best not to make the dominoes topple! It was simply a test of patience and perseverence and i am glad ot have nice team mates in this project. they are pple i can talk to and joke with, it was a very very pleasant experience working with them. I am glad to see my dominoes topple nicely on sunday 29th july. Glad to have joined this project and glad to have cleared 106hrs of CIP haha. I am really very grateful to him, who was there to send me home, despite the fact tt he lives in jurong area( we laid our dominoes at jurong west sports and recreation center), who was there to send us dinner, who was there to send me home when i felt sick and stressed up, who was there to provide all the comfort and love i need. Thanks ming.

this week is a week of english lessons for me and i hope i can pass the post test!

to all those starting school next monday, enjoy life as much as u can. cya guys.

.:..+..~ nEw MiNdSeTs..~+..:..

2007-07-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

today i told myself that there is no point moaning and groaning how bad life can be in the new school or how difficult it is to make friends in school. instead i think i should take on another approach.. live my life in smu to the fullest and try to make use of the limited time in school to participate in as many activities and learn as much as i can!! if i cant fight them, then join them.

i need to change my mindset if not i will kept feelin super down and melancholic.. brace yourself chin si min.. there is a bright new world out there....

3 days without u...

2007-07-13T12:18:00.001+08:00

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with amendments to the previous post, i did the test again... this time with more consideration... wow.. seems lyk i have too many interest... dunnoe what will i major in future...

well as i was saying...i did chose the right course but maybe not the right school.
from the 3 day bondue camp, i realise i am not a rah-rah person, odd, but yes.. i suddenly became all quiet and less enthu about the things they are doing.lyk... the freshmen ice breaker games they play..and why no mass dance?? coz we belong to 2 different arenas, they belong to the adult world.. drinking at 12pm in the afternoon, smokes and go clubbing... so my camp doesnt have mass dance.. unlike my pals in nus camp... but i am not a clubber and i cant help but to feel at lost when they start dancing wildly to the loud music... sorry... but tt's not my style.. but a whole lot of the students below to that style so i cant fit in :(

and i cant find anyone that shares the same taste of music as me.. yes i am a mandopop fanatic and i cant live a day without listening or singin chinese songs. but there is no one i can sing with in school >.< sianz... where are u tracy tan.. where are u tang xinhui, all my singing khakis where are u...

haiz.. i think i will take very long to adapt to life in new school... sadden..

2007-07-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

i am ready and all set for my coming Bondue camp next week.. geek... i am a bit nervous coz we dun even know the location of our camp, all we are told was that the camp will be outdoors and most probably we will have dinner at changi chalet.. or maybe other destinations that are nt know to us :S.. prays that it is going to be safe and we dont meet any bapoks >.< haha..

about 5 mths w/o proper exercise, i seriously doubt my ability to run around through the camp. i mean with shrinking and weak muscle, how do u expect me to run with the boys who are all trained up from their army days >.<.. bratz.. should i go training??? yeah yeah i guess i should start running around office tml or smth.. maybe climb the stairs? or sprint around the neighbourhood? ermz... i seriously doubt that last minute exercising can do much to help, it mite even worsen the situation >.<.. ok i shall leave it my weak muscles to work when the camp starts. bleah...

i miss my days in council and i seriously hope that the coming camp is going to be as fun as council camps >.<>.<) haha.. hmm... my rah-rahness will be seen as craziness or "gin-na" to those uncle, aunties.. haha.. or those uncle and aunties at heart >.<.. bleah..

tml is my second last day in ELITE, i will try my best to clear all the work and try to spend more time talking to aunty lei ho. i am so going to miss her after i leave... sobz sobz..

new life... can i cope?

2007-07-06T22:46:00.000+08:00

i went for the smu matriculation today and did sign up for 2 camps, namely the biz Bondue camp and the Freshmen Camp. I am really very upset that i chose my camp date on his bdae!!!!!! how blur can i be? i can only say a visit to the school today didnt make my day.

it seems lyk a very bluey friday.... firstly, i dunno y but i kept having a strong feeling that i will have a hard time with the new school life, probably because SMU's culture is very different from NY's culture, so i dunno how it will be like to live 4 years there. plus there are realy very little i know from SMU, i dun see any familiar faces from NYJC nor TJC!! so where does the bulk of SMU students come from? And why are there so much fees that needs to be paid? Everything requires money and everything seems to be so so so expensive.

bluey friday.. how can a DUMB and IDIOT can i be? i considered the fact that 13th july is my last day in ELITE and 30th to 3rd i am having lessons BUT I FORGOT MY PRECIOUS birthday... sobz.. i really needa change to RUN 4.. can anyone help me??

bluey friday... chloe left elite and i am leaving next week. i am only left with 2 days in ELITE and i can sense the sadness from aunty lei ho.. sobz... i am going to miss her...

2007-07-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

*~~.:::HAPPY 2ND MTH ANNIVERSARY MING:::.~~*

2 mths le... hope u lyk the dedication on radio...

love u always...

monday....

2007-07-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

no blues... not the usual monday blues but i feel lighter and happier today.. no particular reason why though, could be due to the many leaves that i am taking this week and next week and the fact that work is finally coming to an end and i am leaving to enjoy my holidays before the school starts.. do u guys realise, my english is getting from bad to worse. i am using longer sentences and using less pronouns :S freaks... i needa catch up with my writing and reading before my language turns rusty.

anyway, GOOD NEWS. i am going for a 3 days SMU orientation camp next week. 10th to 12th and i am really looking forward to it, as a chance to make more new friends and to get the adrenaline rushing, just like the way it is when i was still in council. haha... i dun wanna watch for NTU's appeal letter, i guess it wont bring me any good news. if it is, it should have come by now.

anyway... my last day would be on the 13th july and i get to enjoy a short 2 weeks break before i start to attend english lessons scheduled by SMU. As i have mentioned, i have poor english. oh well... it might be a blessing in disguise...

i am left with less than 1 week in ELITE, taking leave on 5th ,6th, 10th - 12th... hmmm... well, gotta treasure the time left...

2 more days....

Why Why Tell Me Why?

2007-06-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

Firstly to Dear xinhui: Huiz i am very sorry i din get a chance to reply u thru email tdy coz there is a new colleague and i need to teach her and the "new" guy( came for 2 wks le) so abit busy ger.

yeah u also leave at 13/7 then we can go and play badminton, go library, go cafes, go parks together le!! :)

btw, there is this SHOPATHON 2007, held near suntec marina area, its to promote health and fitness, so we can go there and do exercise and enjoy the retail therapy!!! :) :) interested? its held on 7 & 8 JULY at 1pm. registration fee is $10. wanna go?? Anyone else who is reading this entry and interested to join please contact me. Thanks!! haha.. huiz u must also reply k. please go with me ......... >.<

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Back to today's entry... Why why tell me why, why cant i have more control over my temper? yeah someone will say it is all how you think, but i really feel very trapped and locked up this morning that i feel like the butterfly which died in July. That excruciating spin and shoulder pain, which indirectly leads to a migraine is not helping the situation either. I cant help having the feeling that the new ger and chloe cant wait for me to go coz there is simply no place , i repeat NO PLACE, for the new ger to sit. (wtf, such a big office, got money to hire pple, no money to add tables.) The new ger feels trapped and restricted, i feel pressured to leave earlier.
-_-" hell.. this is a very "caged" feeling. shit as i am typing, i can feel my shoulder muscles and back muscle feeling taut. crap.... this isnt a very nice feeling...

why why tell me why.Why do i have such uneasiness and why do i have so little control over temper. once things crops up, i start to throw my stapler, my big stapler, throw the elite chop, chop it numerous times on the wall, throw the mouse and kick the photocopier... how do i shake
off such uneasiness.. how do i learn to control my temper...

well, in the end chloe was quite scared to see me in this uncontrolled manner that she suggest that i go home, so i went off!!! took a precious half day to go rewind myself. I went to eat sushi buffet and went for a movie, went to visit some frenz and go feed mosquitoes with ming.. ahaha.. well... that's the only time i feel most at ease and happy. i am really thankful that ming is there to share his optimism with me....

so much so for today, i can only pray that tml is a better day.. with less work.. less scoldings.... no eagle eye chloe walking ard, no fat ass walking ard.....

saturday..........

2007-06-24T23:38:00.000+08:00

a saturday that i feel that i have wasted money on. Why? its sound so nice that i am on a trip to malaysia, but in fact it wasnt a trip that worth my $55.

the trip are for kids lyk my sis, but apparently my sis are too scared of the creepy crawlies and i am too disgusted by the smelly toilet. *puke*
all the trips to those mushroom farm, pineapple farm, organic farm are merely eating sessions for us. the only thing i seem to remember from the entire trip, besides shopping, is eating!

but i was glad that the last few hours of the trip was nice. The reasons that i joined this trip are shopping and the seafood dinner. But the wasnt really much to shop that their JUSCO shopping centre, though the MANGO clothes there are slightly cheaper, but other than tt, i bought nth.
the best part was the seafood dinner as i get to eat crab!!! yeah i love to eat crabby recently, an unsual craving for them. and i got to taste them at the restaurant *ming paid for the crabs :)

to say, i would not have joined the trip if ming did not go ( coz i would be bored to death).
coz i wanna spent the whole day with him, though i seemed to have bullied him alot at the trip :x
sorry ming, bullied u so much n made u the baby sitter when i was shopping. but i am very happy to have u with me through the trip, to talk to me, to sing with me, to slp with me, to eat with me, to explore with me, to take care of me. ming.... thanks for everything...

love u.....

sNoWy WinTeR dAy

2007-06-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

went snow city and ice skating on saturday... in the end i was down on flu on sunday..

oh well...

i wish to share more precious memories with u.......
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1 more mth left to staying in Elite...

yeah finally my break is coming and uni life is inviting me!!!

DEAD

2007-06-15T00:22:00.000+08:00

why dead?

i was called into pantry by chloe(my team leader) tdy.

need i say more?

she says that i have been not quite myself lately, getting from bad to worse.. getting more n more careless...

she hopes tt i can separate my personal life n work.

its nt him tt's affecting my work performance.

its really my own problem.. i have no heart to work these days.

be it morale or energy level, they are all at zero.

i cant stand waking up every morning going to work.

i am really envious of those leaving tml ( marie and jp)

should i request to leave one week earlier?

does it make any difference????

F is for.....

2007-06-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

Frustrated..

Fatigue....

seriously.. why am i so carless... need i elaborate?
i am making mistakes at work again... haiz....

2007-06-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

Shopping Day!!!

havent have time to go shopping for the last 3 weeks.... Really enjoyed going on a shopping trip today :)

k... i shall go shopping for peep-toe heels and denim skirts the next time.. my next shopping destination: the Central!!!

2007-06-05T00:04:00.000+08:00

SHREK 3...

min min went to watch shrek 3 with mummy, mei mei and ... ming

mummy seems to lyk ming :)

2007-06-04T23:55:00.001+08:00

HAPPY FIRST MTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!

THANKS FOR YOUR GIFT... i lyk the gift nt becoz its expensive.. but becoz its from u and i am glad to know u understand wat i like..

521

processing...

2007-06-03T00:11:00.000+08:00

It has been 3 weeks since i work for 7 days a week... -.-"

boss... i want my break.... >.<""

finally there is a new guy to take over me in elite... :) it wont be long that i leave the office at 545 everyday.. wahaha...

To the special you: 2 more days............ ;P

YUMMY DONUTS!!! >.<

2007-05-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

where yummy donuts are borned.....

i feel lyk sinking my teeth into every single donut. >.<>
CHEERS!!!

a full box of double chocs donut just for me >.<>>.<<

INDULGENCE >.<

my cravings for today are satistified *grins*
thank you daddy and mummy who spent 4 long hours queuing for these donuts
i love you guys * lots of smile* :)

2007-05-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

I AM GOING SMU BUSINESS!!!!

SMU HERE I COME !!!

its jus a frustrating process that saps my energy

2007-05-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

Why do we have to make so many decisions in life?
Is it because i am too used to the planned route that i forgot how to think for myself?

Or it because i have to bear in mind i have to get a degree that fetches good money to give my family a better life? or am i just purely without a choice?

ok....i think tml i will come to a decision....

2007-05-18T00:22:00.000+08:00

我很累！！！！真得很累很累！心灵与身体的累！

i realise....

2007-05-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

... i am a subset of you ....

b just think carefully.... nvm show u guys tml... b

2007-05-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

伤了才知道如何珍惜。。。才知道什么最珍贵。。。

不能没有一刻不想起你。。。

想一个人好寂寞哦。。
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《爱上双鱼座男生〉〉

chapter 1

只记得在网上看到他的留言，但不记得和他有过的接触，旭文淡淡地想起他在网上留言的一些话。

“是什么让一个人成长，从一颗单纯的心变得那么有心机。
是社会的残酷让人以为每天强颜欢笑就能幸福的过日子，还是自己常在欺骗自己。
还是只是因为大家都不能接受现实呢？

你，是不是我在说的人呢？”

旭文被他这一段话深深的影响了，一项不是很聪明的旭文总是认为自己的生命就像一场戏，一场虚假的戏，一场它不能预知的戏。建聪在网上所说的这一段话，让她深深地反省了自己的人生。

她以网名“受伤小鱼”留言
“谢谢你让我认清我自己。希望以后能看到你更好的作品。”

林建聪，25 岁是个广告设计师，对人生无耐的他，希望从写作中得到一点安慰。
陈旭文，21岁，还在念大学，性格迷糊，是个容易受骗的女孩。自从一回被骗之后，她从此便带着面具做人。以“小鱼”为名，全都因为“珊瑚海”， “海鸟和鱼相爱，只是一场意外。”她万万没有想到的是，建聪便是当年飞走了的海鸟。。。
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待续。。。。。

快乐！！！！^ - ^

2007-05-13T00:56:00.000+08:00

我的人生一天比一天快乐！！
我希望能天天快乐！！^-^

五月天 by SHE

黄金海岸的岸边

我们肩并着肩洁净的蓝天清澈的水面

吻成一条海平线

看你温柔的双眼弹着吉他的弦歌词

是诺言旋律

是依恋

唱出一首五月天

五月的天刚诞生的夏天

我们之间才完成的爱恋

紧握的手里面有好多明天

五月的天梦开始要鲜艳

前方蜿蜒一长串的心愿

我们一天一天慢慢实现大雨冲走了昨天青春乌云几片

彩虹的旁边有星星几点迫不及待在眨眼

海风味道变香甜沙滩镶满亮片

你哼着永远我和着不变

合唱一首五月天

海浪拼命欢呼跳跃

一遍又一遍鼓励我们看谁先吻谁的脸

为这五月之恋再添一个逗点

再多的五月天怕也不够我们沉醉

海燕身边来回盘旋扮演着领队彷佛听见幸福在前面不远

为这五月之恋再添一点信念

往后的五月天和你走到比永远还远...

一首歌唱出我现在所有的感觉。。

拽

2007-05-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

就是喜欢拽。。。

因为很酷。。。还是觉得炎亚伦的比较帅。>.<

nth to say today but can say i lyk tonite :) everything abt tonite :)

拽

2007-05-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

我想去拍照。。。把不一样的人，不一样的事都用相机捕捉起来，把开心的，不开心的都拍下来。。。

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社会就像个大染缸，遇上不同的人就会染到不一样的颜色，你染上了什么颜色呢？是纯洁的白色还是黑色，染上了灰色该着怎么办？

今天。。。学了很多，看了很多，伤心了，感动了，什么都有。。。伤心比较多吧。。。

看来不伤人的一个举动，一句话，可让我觉得。。。人生。。。很残酷。。。

你今天认识的人，不知哪一天会出卖你。

你今天认识的人，不知哪天会在背后捅你一刀。你在工作上，不知道会犯什么错，犯了错，却又不知道人家真的事不在意还是那天又会在你背后说你坏话。。。工作有时候真的很累，也许我还有很多要学习的吧。。。要学会。。。

人心难策。。。

FUN!!!! :) :)

2007-05-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

there is a kiddo in me!! i simply love to visit the arcade to destress!!
it is simply fun and relaxing jus hitting those "ouch!ouch!ouch!" crocodiles!!
it was fun when u simply see those kids enjoying those games!! i feel as free as a kid at the arcade!

And with the 250 tickets from playing the games, we exchanged for
Exclusive Slippers Erasers which are simply sweet and cute!! :) :) :)

And these are the pix which i managed to drew/ copied today :p
take a look... quite ok right *BHB*

love tree.. can you see that i am immersed with love? (>.<)( >.<)( >.<)

听天由命...

2007-05-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

人算不如天算，最终还是进不了自己想要进的科目。。。我要进accountancy..... :(
伤感。。。。 >.< 只希望其他学校能让我竟我想进的科目吧。。。。 -.-"

"sadly.... it's heaven's will"

人的忍耐是有限度的

2007-05-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

真想拿那两片大胶布封了他那张嘴，让口不遮拦的他不能说话。

几岁的人了还这样子，也不想想别人的感受。。

海鸟和鱼相爱只是一场意外

2007-05-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

ok ok its not very clear.... but these are my random thoughts for today.... i will jia you in drawing de!!! :)

another random pix :)

shall i go revolving restaurant for mother's day ???? :)

wat i am listening to now: 独唱情歌。。。

2007-04-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

只想乱乱画。。。。

这是一条寂寞的道路，我只有鼓起勇气，勇敢地走下去。。。

我就像个受了伤的大提琴手，你就是那大提琴。
我无法再弹奏出悠扬的音乐了。。。。

我被时间追得很紧，只想好好的透透气。。。

你就像张白纸，这么的纯洁。我手中却直握着黑色和灰色的彩笔，我无法将你的生活染成缤纷的彩虹。。。

我在寻找这样的宁静。。。。
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有人说女人扁脸变得很快，但男人也何尝不是如此。
今天对你关怀备至，百般呵护，隔天对你忽冷忽热。
说要会到之前一样的朋友，好像很难。
我开始从他身上找到之前那个他的影子。从刚开始的保持一定距离，到不理不睬，到漠不关心，最后真的又要多一个擦肩而过的陌生人吗。他。。。现在感觉人在，但心早已离我很远。。。看样子我真的做错了。。。

爱神丘比特。。。你。。。在考我吗？我受不了这些爱的考验。

我只能说，我对爱情没有憧憬，只希望我人生会有其他美好的是出现。。。

不想。。。

2007-04-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

我需要时间。。。

心情不好

离我远一点

小心我把你杀了

CONFESS..... :s

2007-04-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

我怕.

你。。。真的想清楚了吗？

我真的不是个好女朋友哦。

1）我妈很严。

2）i have far too much committments, be it work, family members, credit card promoting, meeting up with frenz... will i have time for u :S now i even worry tt i would b able to make it for spiderman3 nxt wk coz of my sis exams....

3) i have far too much restrictions, coz my dad n mum are both pretty strict..

4) i am a social butterfly.. i really hab alot of frenz n some thinks that i have too many guy frenz... its is not true that i treat all guys equally well... coz i would onli treat my bf the best n when i fall in love, i am super committed n devoted to my guy. but some pple just cant take it that i am a social butterfly.

5) i am not pretty, nt attractive... i can say yr baby skin is better than mine...

6) our horoscope clashes... we are water n fire...

7) we live at opp sides of our little island..

8) r u sure that we have enuff common interest that will make us that long enuff or is it just the initial infatuation?

9) we onli know each other for a mth. frankily speaking we onli c each other thrice...

10) (if we really last that long).... u will b working n i will b schooling... u see our gap n difference?

with 10 obstacles before us... do u think we can still move on??
i cant be selfish to keep u by my side, i needa think whether yr life will be made more miserable or more happy with me ard.
isnt it all abt getting into a r/s? feelin happy n lucky? if i cant give u tt, i rather stay as frenz with u...

seriously, ponder over my words.... before u tell me yr decision.. whether is it to stay as frenz or not.. i will still take whatever u say... if we cant work out then probably we shud end it before things get out of hand...

think about it...

原来我没那么坚强

2007-04-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

最终我还是输了，没进得了大决赛，还以为我笑笑没什么大不了，早上还和名说我没事，但下午却被狠狠地弄伤了。
uncle william :" later got ice cream"
chelle: " wah y suddenly so gd?"
uncle william:" coz celebrate u lose. y will lose?"
chelle: ".............................................."

真伤人。我本以为自己很坚强，但他这么一说我真有点难过。
就是有那种一点点酸酸的难过，也说不清为什么。我对自己的期望不高，所以失望也不高。可是。。。

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一切都还是个未知数，但。。。我满脑子都是你的样子。他们说我们太快了，但。。。
难道我真的陷得太深：s 怎么办？？？？？？？你。。。离开我脑袋一下下啦。不要让我每份每秒想着你好吗？

机会是留给有作准备的人的

2007-04-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

我觉得很久没有得到爱情拥抱的人，在突然间得到爱情的滋润之后，会很像在沙漠中的仙人掌得到露水的灌溉一样，一直希望继续被爱。

如果当初没有露水的灌溉，也许仙人掌能够自力更生吧。但一旦被露水灌溉后，就会残生了依赖，一直希望这样的被照顾。爱情，不也是如此吗？

要是当初没有他的出现，也许现在我不会发愁生命中没有被人爱着的感觉，不会像着有一天会找到爱我的人。因为我会习惯之前没有男朋友那一年多的生活，享受和朋友在一起的日子。

真是无奈！烦人的过程！！唉！真么现在这么想被爱。幸福。。。难道真的是要被一个人需要吗？

i think i got in :)

2007-04-13T15:41:00.000+08:00

http://www.yes933.sg/djsearch/

我好像进了yes933明星争霸赛的第二圈哦。
是有我的名字，不过。。。陈思敏这个名字很普通啊，万一不是我真么办？

有空下来支持我吧，22-4-07 在 IMM,把时间给忘了，请参阅以上网址来了解详情。

如果真的摆乌龙，那就陪我吃饭吧。。

真的是有点小开心。。。：）

不过下个礼拜我不能偷懒了，要努力读书，为下个礼拜的比赛与SMU INTERVIEW 做好万分的准备。

为我加油吧！！！：）

THE WORLD IS A CRUEL PLACE

2007-04-12T22:41:00.000+08:00

today is a really sucky day, every other thing seems to be in a mess. First, my shipping line delayed my docs, then my customer called and emailed around 8 times today to chase for her document. Next, every other shipping line is calling me for something, first is NOra, then Cheryl, then charmaine :( i felt like i am working as a customer call service officer, answering millions of call per day. and the worst hit was this email.

"Just taken a look at the spreadsheet that you all hv updated.

Those that you did not manage to locate in Cisco warehouse are as follows (ie not highlighted as mentioned, extracted fr updated spreadsheet);-

CHEMICAL 03/04 } you said that this is not in my spreadsheet (scroll down email), however it is!
CHEMICAL 05/06 } you said that this is not in my spreadsheet, however it is!"

hello person in charge of shell , i may be cock-eyed and missed out your column for this 2 boxes but do you have to be so sarcastic...

why? why? why?

there is no motivation in this job.. grh...

我的心。。。死了。。。

2007-04-11T23:29:00.000+08:00

不再有期待

不再想等待

不再想从来

正要想离开

受不了折磨

只想找快乐

看清了未来

看清了现在

没有终点的未来。。。

不是情人不是敌人，只是没有关系的陌生人。

我。。。想通了。。。

不能成为朋友

太多的误会

难以销毁

心里永远带着刺

永远不能以坦诚面对

下次在街上见面，应该会擦肩而过。。。

我终于明白。

人生也许就是那么，一言难尽。

2007-04-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

i guess i should start using english in my entries since i should be preparing for SMU interview.

I did not go to warehouse today, apparently not just because there are excess help at the warehouse but also because of the fact that someone will be back at office. Yet, its so sad whenever i talked to him. ok i cant be bothered with love affairs for now as i certainly need to get a life. LIFE = enjoy, destress, have fun

i wonder how do people actually survive for 40working years. probably i am not doing a job that i really enjoy or is it because i am suffering from insufficient sleep? i am really bored by this job sometimes. especially since they piled up the work for me as i wasnt around for 2 days. Adding on the fact that many of my colleagues were leaving today, i felt worse than other days. ok right, i must admit that what one person says will really spoil my day, even though i might have really wished for him to come back. work ends at 9pm for me today, even though i am dying to go home at 7pm. well, i made the choice to go to the warehouse, therefore i shall fulfill my job as the IC there and shall not add onto chloe's burden.

i love my kids at the warehouse. Why kids? I felt like a mummy sending her kids to work this morning. i watched them board the taxi and waited for the taxi to drive quite a distance before i left. i felt worried for them, thinking that i should have just went with them. Although they are just my colleagues, and they really enjoyed themselves today, since they went to play pool for 2 hrs when they are apparently" caught in the rain" Yesh! that's their "valid" excuse. not very valid though as they are not working for a solid 2 hours, though i felt bad that i made them stayed overtime just to check whether one of the boxes is in place. sorry guys...

It is pretty demanding to go to the warehouse unlike what it seems to be an easy job. I am fully responsible with everything that is happening in the warehouse, be it a box missing, whether the spreadsheet is updated accurately, whether the boxes at the warehouse tally with that in the spreadsheet, and i have to answer the many questions posted to me by chloe. this is called the real working life. Being questioned by your boss anytime, anywhere and anything. the next time it wouldnt be questioning by our boss, the answers will be demanded by the boss!!!!:S

yes work life is this boring and irritating and working simply just makes me feel more impatient and agitated with everything around me. speed and accuracy and committment to the job sucks the time out of my other plans. i could hardly find time to rest this week. this week is bustling with activities. mon to tue warehouse, wed pek chek day, thurs, shud be pek chek day too, friday, whole day give tuition, sat, go out for council campfire,sun work from 1130 to 7. wow, bravo no break since the week before last week.

i need a a place to breathe....

i dun need a BF all i need are BFF :)

2007-04-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

今天又觉得很想出国了，真想离开这小小的岛屿，跨到另一个世界去。

但。。。又没钱，又没人陪，想了也等于白想。

真得很想放个假，去玩一玩。也许工作真的很乏味。想念和我的朋友们每天在学校一起聊有的没的的日子。想念一起一边做工可以边唱歌的日子，以期偷懒睡觉的日子。今天经过了nus, 真是羡慕那些上学的人的日子。

....

2007-04-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

"我觉得一个人的忧愁是有限的，所以要哭就应该大声的哭，歇斯底里地去哭，；将一生的哀怨全宣泄出来后，以后也就没有什么值得哭了。" quotes from my dearest frenz, tracy tan....

爱一个人，别太认真。放弃自尊，输掉纯真。爱得太深，伤的越深。爱的一切，归为缘分。爱错了人，才了解爱情多么残忍。。。爱。。让人无奈。

那天我哭了，放纵自己放声的哭，哭累了，真个人都觉得舒服多了。

今天，自己突然静下来想了想一些事情。发现我宁愿被爱好过爱人，爱一个人很累，没有回映的爱，更累。

喜欢你的香水味，怀念你的声音，但。。。一切就少了期待。

想不透的烦闷，挥不去的过去，找不到的终点，逃不掉的困扰，只希望慢慢把手松开，捕捉仅有的幸福。。。

要是一切没有开始，那现在会又怎样的结局。。。开始就不应该告诉你我爱你，这样最后伤的人应该不是我而是你。一开始，就应该爱自己多一些。时间不会从来，只能看着你的背影，自己独自一人勇敢地走下去。。。

on junxian's last day

2007-03-31T15:29:00.000+08:00

jx, daddy n xiaodi

many funny and cute pix..

haha yetd was sean jiang's last day in elite. i bet he was more than happy to leave this place to seek for a better job outside. though iwasnt very sure that the next job will suit him or not but i am sure that he is gonna earn more money than what he earns here. so... for the sake of money, Jx u must press on no matter how hard it is. Though i know this tough guy will actually brave all odds, and never say die. hmmm.. gonnna miss the way he says, eh kok chong ah, sean from elite ah... and the way he says.. morning this is sean from elite... the special he always laugh during phone calls, the jokes he will crack with uncle william, the way he will hum songs, the way the few boys will joke over lunch.. oh.. lunch will never be the same without him around. well.. i just gonna learn the days without him around. no one to bicker with me. no more eye candy :P

i dint feel particularly unhappy or happy that he is leaving. maybe i am just glad that there will be no more heartbreaks, no more crying sessions when i am in office, no more feeling jealous, no more sean jiang jun xian to think about. but like what alvin says, am i really ready to let all things come to an end. 2 days before he is leaving, i told alvin, oh glad that sean is leaving and xiao di asked me. are you really sure u want everything to end so soon. he felt weird that why i am trying to cover up how i feel towards him in front of other people. in actual fact, i am tired of all the cold shoulders he gives me, we cant even communicate as frenz.. this is really saddening. but i promise myself, those hard days are over and i am going to leave a better life from now on. i believe that time heal all wounds. i am gonna get a solid boyfriend only when i get into UNI! :>

junxian... jia you with whatever u do... i am glad to have u as a frenz and do meet up sometime.

miss u lots...

" how do i live without u.. i want to know... how do i breathe without u.. if you ever go..."

unlucky still lucky day

2007-03-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

tdy i felt so sicky. first i din get enuff slp, then there r tons of errors n files to do in the morning.

first they gave me whole kindof docs, then i need to do 9 urgent files, next i forgot to send out something through DHL... its so irritating that i just wanted to scream!!!!!

even though he is back, it is as though he isnt... so near yet so far... well... maybe when he leaves i will survive coz... i dunnoe.. we shall c

but there is something nice today.. i met my jc crush on the train!!! Mr Chong R J, currently at CMPB.. haha so he is actually so near to me.. n i took a photo of his name tag haha..

would it take very long to forget someone u like?

2007-03-23T13:46:00.000+08:00

it has been way past the 2 weeks that jing lun set for me to forget him. Afterall, i never believe that i coulld forget him in just 2 weeks, but i didnt know that the feeling of loving him lingered on after so long.

i guess i was stubborn, or i just because i am cant fight the feeling off. I am very clear that we are not meant for each other but i still try my best to love him. i know that he doesnt love me anymore, or rather, he has never love me before.he is looking for a marriage partner, but i am too young to even think about marrying someone when i have not even complete my studies. well... our major difference and a major barrier to any relationship could be age. :/ i dont know why, but i always try to do what i can to show my concern for him. i bought him po chai pills when he was sick. i made him hearts with straws and put it on his table. sometimes, i just took peeks of him from the back of my table. i just needed to feel his presence. The loving feeling that lingered on feels like puppy love to me. It is a one-sided love that requires no return from him. I just wonder how long will it take for me to forget him?

i took 10 mths to forget my second ex, who fits my bill for a bf. he is understanding, a big brother to me and he is the only one i took the effort to be at his side throughout his preparation for o levels. It can be seen as dumb as he studied at home till 3 then we will sms or go online to accompany each other till 3 then call each other to talk on the phone. it was silly but nice as he was the only bf that manage to chat so well with me and we never quarralled. our r/s lasted 2 mths though but he will be a bf that i will remember. 10 mths.... it really took me a long time to forget him.

My previous r/s lasted abt 6 mths but he was a guy i enjoyed very interesting memories. i will always remember the way we asked each other for surprises and " bu chang". his little surprises for me and the way he makes me feel that i am being loved. i will remember the day we got together 11012005, the candles u light up to say i love you, the night u piggyback me at padang, the night we went on the boat, the days when we cook together and the days we simply love each others company. he was a guy that made me cry from 8am to 8pm when we broke up. i really cried my hearts out as i really treasured him. although we had many disagreements after we broke up, to the extent that we even hate each other, i still think he is a nice bfit took me 5 mths only to forget him though.

this guy that i have been constantly talking about these days... i dunnoe whether it is considered a r/s or not. i guess he never took me as one of his gf before though. our honeymoon period lasted 4 days i guess, then it was over. he said that we should remain as frenz. but 我付出的爱，不能马上收回，（cannot read VIEW, Encoding, then unicode) i will remember the kinder surprise 's surprise he tried to give, the days when we went to esplanade, the day we went for a movie, the first time he gently held my hand for a few seconds on v'day, the times when we walk home from bugis to my place and every little thing he did to make me feel loved. That day before he left BKK, he sent me a very very short msg. "Hey... Take care too... Cya..." It was only this short, but it actually made my day. Does it means that he cares for me? Does it means that he still likes me a little even though we are like frenz? i really dunnoe but it is really sweet. however, i guess he doesnt like me anymore as as and when , he will accidentally or incidentally says " i have a date tml" -.-" ok you have a date but do you have to let me know? " if i can get her, i will watch the movie tml" so you r going out for a hot date for me movie then why say it so loud when u know that i will be sad? well... maybe getting hurt will make me forget him faster.

till next time i blog...

Peace before the thunder storm

2007-03-22T09:39:00.000+08:00

i can feel the thunder storm coming as i can sense that something is rising out of the corner. it cannot be so peaceful these days as i have been running on bad luck in relationships with people recently. I have been enjoying 3 peaceful days with no quarrels n arguements from my mum and him until... alvin was reading my blog in the office yetd and he happen to pop by. he was actually reading my blog.

i dont know if it is alright to let him read the contents of the blog since i did say quite some things about him on the blog and i wasnt ready to let him c. and he did act up abt bu shuang or something when i sms him at nitez. probably its just his natural reaction towards me, nothing to do with the blog issue. probably i am just too sensitive. well , but i guess there is a storm coming no matter what. it will be just creeping in the corner and explode when it shall.

however, before everything i shall enjoy my life as much as i could.

Why is everyone going overseas these days? my aunt is in korea, sean,alvin & william are going to bangkok, xinhui, van, shawn r going to genting and cameron highlands and shawn(again!), beng and tracy is going to Hong kong. I am so envious( plus jealous:)) of them coz i am stuck in singapore. ok u will say console yourself, at least there is no haze, no earhtquakes and no natural disaster in singapore i should treasure what i have. but i really wanted to go out of my little island and probably to some nice country where i can shop, eat and have some fun. maybe TAIWAN haha i wanna go taiwan but seems that no one wants too .haha. actually i was invited to go on the hk trip with them but it was too rush for me. they informed me this tues and they are going on the 2th april! plus i was supposed to bring pple to the warehse(again! :( ) on these few days. Maybe i should suggest to my mum that i bring my sis on the taiwan trip sia. since she hardly gets to travel and i happen to be working and i want to go taiwan! hmm.. ok ok plan plan haha.. haiz...

Want to know why u r working so hard?
On the very first day of the world, God created the cow.He said to the cow: "Ah Gu (cow), today I have created you!Your job is to go to the field with the farmer all day long.You will provide the energy to pull things!You will also provide milk for people to drink!You are to work all day under the sun! In return, you will only eat grass.For that, you will have a life span of 50 years."

Ah Gu objected: "What.. I work all day in the sun and I get only to eat grass!On top of that, I have to give my milk away!This is tough and you want me to live 50 years!
I'll take 20 and you can have the remaining 30 years back!"
God agreed.

On the next day, God created the dog.He said to the dog: "Ah Kow (dog), I have created you for a purpose.You are to sit all day by the door of your master's house!Should anyone come in, you are to bark at them!In return, you will eat your master's leftovers.I'll give you a life span of 20 years."

Ah Kow objected: "What! I have to sit by the door all day and will need to bark at people and what do I get...LEFTOVERS...This isn't right, I'll take 10 and you can have the remaining 10 years back!"God agreed again.

On the third day, God created the monkey.He said to the monkey: "Lao Kao (monkey), your job is to entertain people.You will make them laugh, act stupid and make faces!You will also do somersaults and swing on trees to amaze them.In return, you will get to eat bananas and peanuts.For that, I'll give you 20 years to live."

Naturally the monkey objected.This is ridiculous, I gotta make faces and make people laugh let not even come to the part about the trees and somersaults.Tell you what, I'll give 10 years of my life to thank you for my existence and I'll take 10.What do you think?"God agreed again.

On the forth day, God created humans.God said to the man: "You are my best piece of work, for that, you will only need to sleep, eat, sleep, play, eat, sleep again and do nothing else.You will get to eat all the best things and play with the best toys.All you need to do is enjoy all your life.For this kinda of life, I'll give you 20 years."

Just like the rest, the man objected: "What, all I need to do is relax and enjoy myself and I have only 20 years to live?Tell you what, you've 30 years back from Ah Gu, 10 years from Ah Kow and another 10 from Lao Kao and you probably don't know what to do with all those lifes.Why not I take them all and I'll have 70 years to live?"

God being such good natured, agreed with a smile.....AND THAT IS WHY.....We eat, sleep, play and enjoy for the first 20 years of our lives when we are growing up.Work like a cow for the next 30 to raise our family.Sit outside the door and bark at people for the next 10 when we are retired.And finally, we make faces and perform monkey tricks to entertain our grandchildren for the final 10 years.GET IT ?????(Why the cow gave back 30 years. 10 would have been more bearable eh?)

haha an interesting story izzit it?

Well, a very happy birthday to XINHUI & JUNPENG whose birthday happens to be today :)
May all you wishes come true guys.

happy bdae to all of you

2007-03-21T00:08:00.000+08:00

First, happy birthday to wee keat whose birthday is today 21st march!

well, i really enjoy going out with my S.H.I.T, it has been quite long since we last met and i definitely enjoyed the K session with them though i seriously still prefer kbox which i bigger nicer oh and also more expensive :S we are out celebrating xinhui's bdae tdy and xinhui decides that we should go ktv. it was nice hearing tracy sings as she has such a sweet voice, suited to sing english songs! next time i'll let u guys know of the name n place of the ktv then u guys can visit it on your own. :)

oh btw, sean jiang if you happen to read this page, the above picture shows the shirt i want you to get for me when u get to bangkok... Thank you so much!! can i have super nice biscuits and crackers too :)

you see i really envious tracy tan who finally found true love. She was back with Issac, the guy she used to stead with when we r in sec 3 and now, after 2 years, they got back together. doesnt that shows that they are fated to be together? well, i give them all my wishes.

2007-03-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

oopz i realise i have been so busy that i haven been blogging for 3 days.

well, i took a break on friday though, to go cycling and rewind myself. i simply love the way that i dont have to think of work or anyone and just cycle all i want. I managed to cycle all the way to changi airport that day! the plane were flying so close to my face and they are all so beautiful. how i wish i have a better camera to take the pictures down.

But, the stupid and clumsy me still did not escape the fate of falling. i fell off my bike and have a lot of blue-blacks and bruises. i was lucky that i did not fell in front of the navy boys who were setting up tents for a biathlon. they were teasing me as i nearly fell of the bike when i cycled past them.

anyway, i am back at promoting last weekend @expo. it was kindof weird initially as all the promoters are new, all the promotions are new and all of them thought that i was new :S
one of them even offered to teach me to use the photocopying machine. oh that person was marc, our booth ic. so, as an old bird i was supposed to have better sales that them but i was so wrong. being new to this line, they are ambitious and eager to fight for sales, believing the amount of hard work they put in will reap the dame results. so they went on to asking customers to sign up for visa platinum n mastercard plat! the annual fee for these 2 cards are $180 each! probably they are just lucky and probably i am just too lazy. the people they approach are always new to the bank and they can easily suck them dry, whereas for me, i am always with the existing customers. those who alerady have many cards and cash plus. so there arent much sales for me to fight for too. to think of it.. the whole world seems to have the visa platinum card already( i mean those hu can afford and meet the requirements) so why are they still doing away with the co-brand cards which are quite popular.

nevertheless, these young birds are getting tired. many of them are already starting to complain about this job and considering to quit when they have only worked for 2 WEEKS!! (only) it just explains how unappealing and uninteresting this job can be.

maybe i should stop doing roadshows too, like dal, vic, michellephang, pei ling, qiuyi,eddy and wee keat. now its only me and vivian who are still hanging on to the job. should i just leave when michelle leaves after this week? Since the new sales manager is supposed to be a MAN, i guess i might have problems relating to him :S

well, i shall c..

p.s wootz gonna meet S.H.I.T tml.. so happy

so he is really a true gentleman

2007-03-15T11:08:00.000+08:00

why do i suddenly hate him but still say he is a gentleman? here is the recount... one fine rainy day.. ok not really a rainy day but a rainy and stormy and windy day, blur sotong went out of office without her wallet.. as usual.. but this time it was having a downpour and it was almost quite impossible to walk back from the mrt station to office. so i called backto kind young man in office and actually asked for uncle william to help me take my wallet to the control station. but kind young man here is very gentleman, he did not want uncle william to get wet so he came down himself. SO its prince sean to the rescue.. i was actually quite touch when i saw him at the station and quite apologetic when i saw him wet just because of the silly me.

well, since what is done cannot be undone so i guess i should not hate him since he is this nice and this sweet. although it was out of kindness instead of love, i still really appreciated it.

overcoming my fear

2007-03-14T17:38:00.000+08:00

yes! i finally overcome all sorts of fear against him. i no longer feel uneasy around him means his presence is no longer important to me. i have succesfully forget abt him.. i do not feel sad when he is going out with another girl for movie, no longer sad when he treats daphne well and i can even joke about it!! haha.. which means he is no longer important and i no longer like him! i guess so. coz i no longer like him which is why i no longer feel anything about what he do right? haha

this is why i felt particularly happy in the afternoon. i felt so relieved. i kept smiling haha.
well, i am still down on flu and i have to eat porridge today. now i feel so hungry.. and that jinglun is incorrigible. he is late for 1hr!!! and he is still not here yet. i bet he really wanna come and take his cheque at 6 :(

well, i shall update soon... provided that something interesting comes up. life at work is boring!!!

my flu is sapping my energy away...

2007-03-13T10:16:00.000+08:00

yeah i am having a serious flu today and apparently it is the 2 panadol pills i took that eventually sapped my energy. i am feeling so groggy today plus i am having a sore throat. i guess it was retribution.

yetd, i was so into hating him. He was incorrigible and intolerable! how can he be so full of himself and being so sarcastic as and when he like to me. He even made decisions for me by saying that i wont be joining them for lunch. If you wanna to kick me out of the lunch group then let me know. It is unneccessary to play such little tricks. And today, they went all the way for a dim sum buffet. Good. At least i can enjoy lunch i peace. It felt so easy without him around, like when he is not at his desk or not around me. In anycase, i hate him!

i declared war yetd when xinying says jokingly " are u against me? haha. why do you keep picking on me." my reply to this was " he always acts as if he is against the whole world." haha after this was complete silence. i know it was wrong and mean to say so but i just have to tell him who is boss.

i even said super loudly today that i hate sean to the core, when i was talking to alvin. I really do not know whether he is behind me when i said it or what. even if he is really behind me what can he do.

i just cant wait till the day he leaves ELITE!!!!

就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来

2007-03-03T10:18:00.000+08:00

昨天去kbox，唱到这首歌，就的它能表现出我这时的心情。

曲名：把爱放开歌手：飞儿乐团专辑：无限

我们的爱过了就不再回来直到现在我还默默的等待当你开始追寻你要的自由放开我们紧握的手带走我的爱和天空我不知所措我以为我会懂我们的爱我们的爱当我独自走到时间的尽头回忆和我擦身而过带走你的爱和笑容我无力承受最后的一点心痛我们的爱我们的爱把爱放开把手放开如果你的心已不在把爱放开不再等待你的温柔是一片空白把爱放开把心打开这次我决定走出回忆重来就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来啊...... 这次我决定走出所有回忆重来就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来终于明白爱已不再从今以后再也没有什么能去依赖我还有什么期待

他们说我只需要两个礼拜就能把你忘了。我希望，我真的能。。。

作回朋友的爱人，变成最熟悉的陌生人。。。

we are seriously not compatible

2007-02-24T16:07:00.001+08:00

u r a loner, i am a social kid.
I love all frenz, u only lyk yr small gang of frenz.
I hab gers n guys frenz, u seem to lyk yr guy frenz more.
u r super jealous of my guy frenz, thinking they all lyk me or i lyk them all.
And i cant stand being thought tt way.
U need a lot of attention, i need a lot of freedom.
U wanna restrain me, i wana be free to be whoever i want.
we r quarreling everyday, but what i need was happiness in my life.
I tried to let u go, my heart asked u to stay.
I am in a dilemma, but my mum says no point hanging on to you.
I need to be free.
please dun look at me with those reprimanding eyes as i am now no longer yr ger.
I am just me.
Stop critising everything i do. Dun critise what drama i watch was lame, dun say kbox sux becoz i lyk to go there. no point hurting me in this way. i cant be bothered about yr hurtful words.

I wanna be the joyous sagittarius me. my frenz out there... please cheer me up these days dun let me be so stuck in office.

"forget those hugs, forget those kisses n the way you smell my hair... they only belong to fairytales"

we are seriously not compatible

2007-02-24T16:07:00.000+08:00

你我都是傻瓜

2007-02-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

原本以为他已开始慢慢的喜欢我了，原来我始终是被耍了。
他今天又drop wrong hints了。吃饭是不只陪我慢慢地走，吃饭时还细心的拿了菜单到我面前问我要吃什么，还为我夹菜，最后还主动为我付账。但我因过意不去，所以最后把钱还给他。到底是关心还是爱意？可以不要表现的呢么艾美吗？
放工后我们还一起走出去。

但是刚刚看了他的blog, 却看到他诉说自己有多么的想念自己的前女友，多么的痛恨自己当时为什么当时不珍惜她。哈。原来我始终是他感情里的一个玩偶，我的感情一再的被他玩弄。唉。。。说我天真，说我笨好了。我竟然相信日久生情。

我真是太傻了。。。

2007-02-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

lately i wasnt able to slp well and rest well. feeling super uncomfortable.

i was really upset and pondering about issues these days. why?are all guys like tt?
or only those which i met? i went out with wee keat for movie lately and my frenz apparently got upset that i rather go out with wk than him. he showed signs of anger n even jealous. why? i thou it was my misunderstanding so i ignored these signs n carried on with life. yet, things start to change. he starts to get snappy when we talk abt v day or even wk. boo~. so i thou he was sensitive or i am imagining things. yet he is so nice to me. i rcvd a kinder surprise from him everyday n he is the gd bro kind which i admire. but i curbed my feelings cox i thou it was impossible bet us n its impossible tt he will lyk me. but i was wrong, he felt tt he lyk me initially and even posted some of his thoughts on his blog. well.... but by the time i realise the full picture
it was too late. we were quarreling for some issues n we felt tt if we r really a couple, we will be quarreling day n nitez.

then why mislead me in the first place. shud hab know tt our age gap will b an obstacle n you shud nt hab treated me so well. sorry to say but i hab a soft spot for guys that treat me well. esp e brotherly way. what hurts most was when i started to like him, he started to not like me. AN IRONY! a day before v day, he suddenly told me he still love his ex a lot.
THEN WHY SHOWED INTEREST IN ME IN THE 1ST PLACE? WHY DO U HAB TO SHOW YR JEALOUS N LET ME KNOW TT U ACTUALLY LYK ME B4? go ahead n like yr ex n i will jus contd to think tt my fondness for u was a kind of brotherly love. why do u need to tread tt fine line bet frenz n lovers?

i woke up in the nitez cursing his actions. i din let the tears fall but e feeling traps in me. if u dun lyk me, pls dun contd misleading me. when we finally went out on v day, he treated me to a fine jap restaurant n gd ambience which was sweet.

he even offered to walk all e way hm with me from bugis to my hse. on our way back, he held my hand to cross the stretch of road for tt brief 2 secs. but my mind was already in a mess. yet, today was an all new story. he told me he treated everyone equally well n not particulary me. so......... i was the one tt was living in a fairytale dream all this while.

the story was nv meant to begin as it was a story started with an ending in mind but then why let it begin n let me get hurt in the process. i am fragile, esp to BGR. i dun lyk the feeling of being cheated.

and he just sits behind me. even if i wanna forget him, i cant. i can only pray tt time will heal all wounds n let us take many steps back to where we begin as frenz. i gotta learn to brace myself....

2006-05-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

CCACO DINNER 13TH MAY 2006!!!
yeah its super nice
had alot of fun with my juniors thou it costed them 450++ for the dinner :X
they are really a bunch of cool pple
CCACO ROCKS!!

sorry pple really wanna upload photos today but well THE Files are too big!!! and too many...give me some time to upload ok :)

the song i like now..

2006-01-20T11:43:00.000+08:00

曲名：Kiss goodbye 歌手：王力宏专辑：盖世英雄

baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心
好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走
去跟随
每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味
我终于明白

2006-01-15T22:07:00.000+08:00

LISTEN TO THIS LETTER AND GOOD LUCK!!!!!

Sorry,
but this chain letter is for real.
When Anne Wichert got it for the first time,
she ignored it and a week later the love of her
life dumped her for no good reason so
BEWARE,
and just send the stupid letter!!!!!!

?/p>

The Lovers of the Heart

In order to form
a more perfect kiss,
enable the mighty hug to promote
to whom we please
but one kiss.

?

Article 1:

Statement of Love:
The Kiss

?

1.
Kiss on the hand
I adore you

2.
Kiss on the cheek
I just want to be friends

3.
Kiss on the neck
I want you

4.
Kiss on the lips
I love you

5.
Kiss on the ears
I am just playing

6.
Kiss anywhere else
lets not get carried away

7.
Look in your eyes
kiss me

8.
Playing with your hair
I can't live without you

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9.
Hand on your waist
I love you to much to let you go

Article 2:
The Three Steps

1.
Girls:
If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.

2.
Guys
If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.

3.
Guys & Girls
Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare .

Article 3:
The Commandments

1.
Thou shall not squeeze
too hard.

2.
Thou shall not ask for a kiss,
but take one.

3.
Thou shall kiss
at every opportunity .

* Remember *
A peach is a peach
A plum is a plum,
A kiss isn't a kiss
Without some tongue.
So open up your mouth
close your eyes,
and give your tongue
some exercise!!!

Here are a few reasons
why guys like girls:

1.
They will always smell good
even if its just shampoo

2.
The way their heads always
find the right spot on our shoulder

3.
How cute they look when they sleep

4.
The ease in which they fit into our arms

5.
The way they kiss you and
all of a sudden everything
is right in the world

6.
How cute they are when they eat

7.
The way they take hours
to get dressed
but in the end
it makes it all worth while

8.
Because they are always
warm even when its minus 30 outside

9.
The way they look good
no matter what they wear

10.
The way they fish for compliments
even though you both know that you
think she's the most
beautiful thing on this earth

11.
How cute they are when they argue

12.
The way her hand always finds yours

13.
The way they smile

14.
The way you feel
when you see their name
on the call ID
after you just had a big fight

15.
The way she says
"lets not fight anymore"
even though you know that
an hour later....

16.
The way they kiss when
you do something nice for them

17.
The way they kiss you
when you say
"I love you"

18.
Actually ...
just the way they kiss you...

19.
The way they fall into your arms
when they cry

20.
Then the way they apologize
for crying over something that silly

21.
The way they hit you
and expect it to hurt

22.
Then the way they apologize
when it does hurt.
(even though we don't admit it)!

23.
The way they say
"I miss you"

24.
The way you miss them

25.
The way their tears
make you want to
change the world
so that it
doesn't hurt her anymore.....
Yet regardless
if you love them,
hate them,
wish they would die
or
know that you would die
without them ...
it matters not.
Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to
the depths of their souls
and
you say a million things
without trace of a sound,
you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed
within the rhythmic beatings
of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart.
A feeling.
Only felt.

*

This chain started in 1887.
It is a love chain letter.
In an hour you are
supposed to send it to
25 people.
It is easy, just look into
chat rooms and find them.
Anyway,
send it to 25 people in 1 hour.
Now here
comes the fun part.
You then say
the name of the person
you like or love
and then the person will say
"I love you,"
or
"Will you go out with me?"
NO JOKE!!!!!

NOW
THE CONSEQUENCES

The consequences are:
If you break the chain letter,
you will have bad luck
in future relationships.
If you don't
break the chain,
then you will be a
happy camper!!!

CoNgRatULaTioNs! !

You have been chosen
to participate
in the
LONGEST
and the
LUCKIEST
chain letter on the Internet!
Once you read,
this letter you must
IMMEDIATELY
(meaning within the hour)
be sent to
25
people
After you send it,
make a wish
and it will come
TRUE

YOU MAY NOT WAIT
FOR A CERTAIN TIME
TO SEND IT........ REMEMBER,
IT MUST BE SENT
TO
25
PEOPLE WITHIN 1 HOUR,
OR
YOUR WISH WILL NOT COME
TRUE!
If THIS
CHAIN LETTER
IS CONTINUED UNTIL
THE YEAR 2004, IT WILL BE PLACED IN

THE GUINNESS BOOK OF WORLD RECORDS!

PLEASE CONTINUE IT NOW!!!

*WARNING*

IF YOU DO NOT PASS THIS ON,
SOMETHING BAD OR WORSE
WILL HAPPEN TO YOU:

NOTE*
THE MORE PEOPLE
YOU SEND THIS TO
THE MORE LUCK YOU WILL
HAVE IN YOUR LOVE LIFE.
IF YOU BREAK
THE CHAIN LETTER

(IT HAS BEEN GOING SINCE 1887)

YOU WILL HAVE
BAD LUCK
WITH YOUR LOVE LIFE
FOR SEVEN YEARS.
THIS IS
NO
JOKE.
GOOD LUCK

merry xmas..

2005-12-25T01:51:00.000+08:00

merry xmas to all my frenz and family members!! wish u guys a merry merry xmas!

tdy i had great fun! i went out with baba and ren to shop shop at TM tdy.. they bought balls cakes n boxers? :S hahah.. then we went arcade and stuff.. best part is when we take neoprint... damn funny. kept laughing.. guys are so retarded when they take neoprint... the photos come out funny then artistic..ren was like asking since when the neoprint machien grew so big. so funny. but baba got good decoration skills next time show u guys the pix!

then went out wit S.H.I.T.. go shop shop n drink caramel rhumba frapuccino with xtra drizzle again. so fun we went to take neoprint again but these are more artistic la.. hm.. girls are more used to the machine then guys. then we went to tray house for bbq. i ate alot so sorry!!! haha the prawns and sotong n stingray are so delicious. thanks tray n her mum for the wonderful dinner.

and thank you to all who has brighten up my xmas eve! merry xmas.

2005-12-02T10:57:00.000+08:00

this is the cause of my frustration these days. haiz i wonder this will ruin our friendship. i dont it too but... i dunnoe..

2005-11-27T11:57:00.000+08:00

曲名：眼泪成诗歌手：孙燕姿专辑：完美的一天

我已经
已经把我伤口化作玫瑰
我的泪水
已经变成雨水早已轮回
我已经
已经把对白流成了永远
忘了天色
究竟是黑是灰
分手伤了谁
谁把他变味
我的眼泪写成了诗已无所谓
让你再回味
自古罪人仍自罪
因为回忆总是美
我已经
已经把绝情变成了恭维
品位不配
一种不能自卑说声失陪
我已经
已经把沉默变成了忏悔
无路可退
只能无言已对
分手伤了谁
谁把他变味
我的眼泪写成了诗已无所谓
让你在回味
自古罪人无自罪
因为回忆总是美
分手伤了谁
谁把他变味
我的眼泪写成了诗已是无所谓
让你再回味
自古罪人无自罪
你的品位总是美

2005-11-27T11:48:00.001+08:00

if u are very disappointed. then i am too. u know me for so long and u still dont know i hate being forced to do things i dont like. "Make that the last".

So be it...

NEW beginnings!!

2005-11-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

NEW beginnings!!

I guessed that i haven been updating for ages. its time to update you more about my life!

COUNCIL RETREAT!!

It actually means council chalet at aloha loyang bungalow 12 laughing trush. this chalet really let me bond with my fellow councillors and let me see different sides of my councillors. Being with ccaco was the happiest part of the council camp. Ccaco went to explore the area in the rain.We played in the pool a little before going to the children's playroom. there were so many balls in the room. Well, the childish me again climb up the structure thinking i am the almighty. BUT i was aimed by balls from all directions! The entire ccaco was throwing balls at me from all directions. They were giggling to hear my OUCH!. Of course i took revenge, i threw back at them. so my dear ccaco and i have a ball war. EVEN MERRICK is having fun. WE only ended when the security guard came in. Liyana was like : " come on, lets all go back to celebrate my 12th bdae!" haha.. no one understand why we has so much fun. i cnat explain too. its just pure FUN!!

Then we had our bbq and stuff. night came and all of us slept by 515am.
i couldnt really sleep coz there was someone snoring loudly in the lving room.. ;X
But iwas a new experience for us i guess.
The next morning we went to build sand castle early in the morning!! it sounds so darn childish but u should have see how different and creative we can be when we build sandcastles i will show you the photos next time!

In this chalet, i not only have fun but also get to really get together with my councillors.we also learn lessons like not blaming our friends and listen to other who can see the blindspots in the project.

Well, the day we went kboxing too!!! it was fun singing with junyi weifang and audrey. we were singing our hearts out on the songzhi zhu.wejust kept singing rock songs that keep our adrenaline pumping. it was so fun to see everyone in mood to sing and stuff. even jeannette and huishan felt in love with some chinese song. p.s huishan and jean both are el pros.
we watched harry potter in the nitez. i think potter is a nice show because of its filming effect not the plot..

i have been spending the entire week with council.. we simple cant get enough of each other. just wanna say i love you guys lots !!!

time to plan for my shopping list. i need a lot of stuff

1. a new backpack which is not too big
2. energy vcd
3. new beach wear
4. new t-shirts
5. new photo frames and photo albums

2005-11-13T10:44:00.000+08:00

Beautiful Saturday

HAha.. Intially, it was a blue saturday as i was feeling down in the afternoon. it soon took a 360degree change and i had a happy saturday. ^-^ ! I was supposed to go for S5C BBQ but i was unable to make it earlier coz i have to work. Well, i cant find anyone to replace me for the last hour so i could get there before 8 so i worked till 8. pout.. BUT.. its nice to have Kenneth Stephen Winson working with me for the hour. He was such a good promoter and he has excellent memory. He remembered my lines in half an hours time. And he continued to persuade his friends who were passing by to buy the drinks. haha.. his hostel was just around the corner you see. So we were talking about our council and our new principal. haha yes on our beloved DonDon... He was like complaining that dondon was getting more and more brainless. Council broke a 3000++ cellophone and Ms Norsheha was like saying that council ahve to pay for it. guess what dondon says? he says" so it means that the school has no money to pay la?" *slap forehead* he was supposed to be guilty and apologize but thats what he said..LOLZ.. Then dondon says he will only show his presidency for the next batch of J1s.. isnt that just too late? Hmm.. he is not the dondon i know huh.. And the sad thing is.. the council vote for him ot be the president. unlike us, we din even know who vote for our beloved president. like dondon, his presidency is not felted. probably he will show his presidency only to the next batch of J1s like what dondon is going to do.^-^ lucky for us though, our pres still has good PR skills LOLZ dondon JIA YOU ok !!

And the new principal.. hahha they got the TKGS devil i think. they were already telling me horror stories before she even stepped into the school. That principal is so much into sports that they worry that she will forget about performing arts. And Kenn was like saying that TJ's is already getting less ra-ra-ra, he was so scared that the new P will bring the atmosphere to a worse level. yeah.. TJ was really ra-ra when Mrs lim and Mrs Judy Ho was around but they are all leaving.. haha i just told Kenn that he will soon get used to it.. Coz i got use to my environment too. NY is never high, never ra-ra except when we are in council.. NY itself is a dull school.. we got a culture shock when we changed from TJ to NY. since i got use to it, i think Kenn will soon get use to the fact soon.. ^-^!

We were busily chatting and promoting at the same time. He is my lucky star! I broke my record yetd! i sold 68 cans of drinks!!! *laugh out loud*

hey thanks kenn for accompanying yetd night.. Its not so bored with you around. Feel free to look for me after your games comm outing.. haha...

JS song...

2005-11-12T11:52:00.001+08:00

曲名：我比想像中爱你歌手：JS 专辑：真命天女电视原声带

飞得越远越看不见你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天和海之间那条界线慢慢地走远
你曾经是我的地平线
你有没有一点想念我们一起去年的夏天
有种爱的感觉在心里面那么地强烈
而这一切好像只是昨天
我才发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认地我比想像中爱你

浪花掠过沙滩边境(海风就像你的呼吸)
我又看见我们的脚印(那曾是回忆的痕迹)
如果遇见幸福的机率要千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你
我才发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒还是不可否认地
我比想像中爱你

终于发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒还是不可否认地
我比想像中爱你

This is a super nice and melancholic song..i simply just love it....Do go find out how it goes or you can ask me to sing to you next time >.<

2005-11-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

i have been feeling down these days... why? kunda landed in ICU of taiwan hospital how can i be happy.. he injured himself when he was practicing for jqj, initially it was only painful in the chest area. it soon became serious as there is blood in his lungs. i was sobbin when i heard the news. its really bad to know the one you love gets into such serious condition.. well... just gonna contd feeling down i guess.. no mood for anything.. no mood to think... no mood to eat... no mood to interact... i just wish to be alone..

2005-11-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

i have started working yetd at mountbatten SPC petrol kiosk as PH drinks promoter. Its kindof lonely as i am the only promoter at the station.There arent many customers who are interested in buying even though there are many people that has tasted it. The I-dragon enrgy drink and the I-Plus Vit C drink is too sweet for many. They often ask me:" is it ok for those people who has excess ureric acid to drink it?" or they will reject me by saying " nah, it has that chemical taste". YET, still there are some nice souls who bought a few cartons from me.. My first customer was a super good looking guy. He is from FEBEXpress. He is tall. He is cool. He is tan. And he smells nice and he is friendly. Today i met another guy which actually made me blush. I havent blush at any guy who i dunnoe since...i was kid? i mean..i dun know him at all and he didnt do anything and i just blush when i was advertising my drink. He smells good and he has nice hair and eyes. He seems young but he has a great nice car. i hope he didnt see my blush because i felt myself burning. Probably because he was standing too close to me. I never dare to stand close to a good looking guy like him. He is more towards the jap look different from the macho FEBEx guy =))

Then there is this really nice young chap who works in the petrol station. He seldom goes into the kiosk itself. Usually standing outside. He came in today and he asked me.."you want biscuit?" What do you think the greedy simin will say? And he offered me oatmeals biscuit.*smile widely* and said.. "you look like you never eat." and from then on i dun dare to look into his eyes again... haha i scared i will blush. in case you guys dunnoe.. i plus at those who are good to me but they are not really close to me..sorry only to the guys..haha.. its jsut two days 6 hrs that i have worked in the petrol kiosk.. it has been a pretty enjoyable experience to me.
i get to know what kind of people are nice people and how they react..

2005-11-02T09:32:00.001+08:00

so nice.. can drop lep... i also wanna drop... xinhui drop lep already.. she is so lucky.. if ican.. i also wanna drop lep.. i cant stand it anymore.. but i only have 3 sub..who can save me...

2005-10-22T09:52:00.000+08:00

A girl asked her boyfriend if he thought she was pretty, He
said...no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her
forever....
and he said no.
She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry,
and
once again he replied with a no.

She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears
streaming
down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....
You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with
you
forever.

And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die...
> >SO NOW I WILL SAY:

>I like you because of who you are to me....A true
friend
and if I don't get this back I'll take the hint.
Tonight at midnight your true love will realize how
special
you are.
Something good will happen to you at 1:00-4:00 PM
tomorrow.
>It could be anywhere, at the grocery, in a class,
anywhere.

Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Please
send
to
15 people in 15 minutes.

Remember:

A
good friend will not come bail you out of jail.... But a
true friend will be sitting next to you saying ... WE
screwed up!
Proud to be your Friend!

Make sure you read all the way down to the last
sentence,
and don't skip ahead.
I've learned....That life is like a roll of toilet
paper.
The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.
I've learned....That we should be glad God doesn't give
us
everything we ask for I've learned....
That money doesn't buy class.
I've learned....That it's those small daily happenings
that
make life so spectacular.

I've learned...That under everyone's hard shell is someone
who wants to be appreciated and loved.
I've learned....That the Lord didn't do it all in one
day.
What makes me think I can?
I've learned....That to ignore the facts does not
change
the facts.

I've learned....That when you plan to get even with
someone,
you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.
I've learned...That love, not time, heals all wounds.
I've learned...That
the easiest way for me to grow as a
person is to surround myself with people smarter than I
am.
I've learned. ..That everyone you meet deserves to be
greeted with a smile.

I've learned...That no one is perfect until you fall in
love with them.
I've learned....That life is tough, but I'm tougher.

I've learned...That opportunities are never lost;
someone
will
take the ones you miss.
I've learned....That when you harbour bitterness,
happiness
will dock elsewhere.
I've learned...That I wish I could have told those I
cared
about that I love them one more time before they
passed
away.
I've learned....That one should keep his words both
soft
and tender, because
tomorrow he may have to eat them.
I've learned....That a smile is an inexpensive way to
improve your looks.

I've learned....That I can't choose how I feel, but I
can
choose what I do about it.
I've learned... That everyone wants to live on top of
the
mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs
while
you're climbing it.

I've learned...That the less time I have to work, the
more
things I get done.

To all of you ... Make sure you read all the way down
to
the last sentence.
It's National Friendship Week. Show your friends how
much you care.

Send this to everyone you consider a FRIEND, even if it
means sending it back to the person who sent it to
you.
If
it comes back to you, then you'll know you have a
circle of
friends

2005-10-16T11:20:00.000+08:00

yeah feeling happier today!!!!
well, after a period of saddness i am now the same old me... the bubbly and chatty simin... i was destressing yesterday at parkway..hugging all teddybears abd kissing them haah. my mum asked whether he bought me any teddy bears to hug so that i can pretend i was hugging him. i said no.. mum say he is too dumb.. hahaah well.. i got no comments:)

well, let's talk a little about open house. Its nice to see so many people stream into our school. they are people who are genuinely interested into getting into ny. its a good sign as i thought everyone seeks for the greener pastures. my junior,weiting came to look for me in the late afternoon. she say ny gives her a very fresh feeling unlike tj which seems so lok kok.. hahah.. well.. zaylene should be coming into ny for 1st 3 mths next year considering her grades.. haha but she is one who is going to seek for the greener pastures i guess.. and i really mean the GREENer pastures. weiting is trying her luck into getting into nationals.. well.. good luck my beloved juniors.

there is this sickening system next year called DSA(Direct School Admission) and those basketballers with 15 points from AHS are already in tjc..what the!!!! ny is losing all our precious talents to this system..i told some of the juniors at open house that its not so great to get into tjc when u dun meet the grade. its a tough battle against the talents and the elites. the immense stress and the lack of confidence that arise from such a dog-eat-dog studyign environment is not worth it.yupz.. i am glad i am in ny..at least i can study at peace and would feel like crying every night..hhaahah

its kindof sad initially to see dragon house gathering so pathethic.
we were left with only one-sixth of the entire dragon house at the end of the dragon house gathering. i must hyped myself up more!!! i must not give up when i see them sianz!!!yes thats my next aim at dragon house gathering.

i love my ccacoains more everyday..ccaco rocks.. and hope kah hui gets well soon..

P.S happy Birthday to my beloved sister chin min hui hahaha :)

2005-10-15T09:53:00.000+08:00

我很少用华文写的，只有在感性时才用。
首先我想对你说，谢谢和对不起。我想我俩的友谊已经到了一个无法弥补的地步了。我伤了你一次，你伤了我一次，从今以后我们俩互不相欠。你再也不用因为亏欠而为我做什么了。
我们的心里都有一道疤，而我们又是对方的盐巴。我们俩为何还是朋友也许只是因为不希望在工作时哪么尴尬罢了，你说对吗？
我想起均号对天瑜说的一句话：“我现在对你只有一种感觉，那就是。。。厌恶”我想那是我们的心里话吧。。。伤得太深才会说的话吧。。。
如果能象均号忘记天瑜那样那该多好。。。

2005-10-06T14:20:00.000+08:00

yea exams are finally over!!!i am so happy.. after i have slogged for around 3 weeks.. haha today is my fnf day( fun and freedom ) hahaha..
let u see this cutie pie which is my beloved teacher mr victor ng... i have staring at him at the exam hall for the whole day.. today he is super suave and dashing.. he looked extemely good in white shirt today.. gosh..>drool drool >_<

sUnSHiNE aFt rAiN

CEO, ACCT and HR ask INTERNS to go

my gd frenz who asked me to enjoy my decision.

for ah ming's 26th

its just me complaining again. blah just let me let off the steam

why got such guys around. u tell me?

i feel damn wu gu

Queen of Queens at St James Powerhouse

GET PAID TO READ EMAILS, ITS NOT A SCAM

I am Still Alive..

.:..+..~ nEw MiNdSeTs..~+..:..

new life... can i cope?

monday....

Why Why Tell Me Why?

saturday..........

*sNoWy WinTeR dAy*

DEAD

F is for.....

processing...

YUMMY DONUTS!!! >.<

its jus a frustrating process that saps my energy

i realise....

快乐！！！！^ - ^

拽

拽

FUN!!!! :) :)

听天由命...

人的忍耐是有限度的

海鸟和鱼相爱只是一场意外

wat i am listening to now: 独唱情歌。。。

不想。。。

CONFESS..... :s

原来我没那么坚强

机会是留给有作准备的人的

i think i got in :)

THE WORLD IS A CRUEL PLACE

我的心。。。死了。。。

人生也许就是那么，一言难尽。

i dun need a BF all i need are BFF :)

on junxian's last day

unlucky still lucky day

would it take very long to forget someone u like?

Peace before the thunder storm

happy bdae to all of you

so he is really a true gentleman

overcoming my fear

my flu is sapping my energy away...

就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来

we are seriously not compatible

we are seriously not compatible

你我都是傻瓜

the song i like now..

merry xmas..

NEW beginnings!!

JS song...

sNoWy WinTeR dAy