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♥ Tuesday, January 01, 2008♥

很不愉快的 1/1/2008

everything starts with the countdown chalet i guess... when one of guys snapped at me when i was making the cheese prawns, " wah lao dun make so many cheese prawns leh. alot of people here dont eat cheese one. lyk A,B and C. his tone was so bad that i could feel the stinging feeling in my eyes. luckily my bf was around to speak up for me. in the end the cheese prawns got wasted, coz i realsied guys dun lyk to eat cheese. but thats not all, that guy who was rude, lets call him W, was super fierce. When i was putting butter on the satays, Guy G says dun put butter on satay coz satay already has its own flavour. But just as he finish, W:" Wah lao dun put butter on satay leh it will tast super bad"(note, in a dunno why pissed off tone)
i feel so useless so i just walked away. but i felt so bad n unhappy about the whole thing already. I was v bored there, since all the people there are above 21, except for the little kid, plus all of them brought their gfs but all the guys are talkin about FYP!! at the bbq pit..

"hey u handed up yr draft for FYP?" "no la, only first draft."

Then comes guy S, which makes the whole feeling worst, like i have to siam him or subconsciously with siam him or ignore him liddat. then when he is around, ah ming cant go over to talk to the boys. for the whole night, i kept feeling like a sinner. Its like because of me, Guy S and ming fell out. Its like the very good guy feels that i have been playing with the 2 guys. but it wasnt the case. is Guy S gave up on me, then ah ming chased me, why pick on me like i played with the 2 guys.

Then, i keep on have the feelin that ah ming is throwing me away when i was giving him a nice hug at the chalet. i mean all his frenz are hugging so openingly with their gf, cant i give my bf a nice hug since all of them are so open about it. but no, not the case to my bf. Keep on have the feelin that he was shifting away when i hugged him. Ok maybe i shudnt be there in the first place since i was the only one who didnt stayed overnight when all the rest did and i caused so much trouble for people. and my poor bf gotta see other people play couple games when his gf is not there. ya i am a sinner.

Then the another sad part comes, ah ming never send me home coz i scared tt he has no transport back later. but it was a lonely ride home from tampiness to home, and my damn phone broke down when i left the mrt. It cannot read the SIM card then i couldnt call home. I was so scared coz there were alot of banglas and there were banglas making those stupid smooching sounds at me. i was so scared that i wanted to cry.. coz i dunno wat to do.. feelin sad and bad, i wanted to call my bf after bath. but he gotta play games and couldnt answer my call. i start crying badly after that coz i was feelin lyk so bad and there is no one there to turn too.. seriously.. i felt sad.

The gloomy feelin was brought forward to the next morning, and i was putting on a sad face. I think its just my luck. i am down on luck. my parents start to scream at me and when i put on a sad face when they bought me the wrong drink. I mean usually they will just ask me to buy a new drink, but tdy they said" 你不要过分啊，没有人得罪你啊。”then they start to throw temper and my ma starts to dig out all the history to scold me at one go.. just my luck... crying seems to doesnt help now.. maybe its because i didnt cry enough... i just feel super sad.. but.. i just got no one understands.. and no one can help me.....

songs that i listen when i am sad..





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