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♥ Tuesday, June 26, 2007♥

Firstly to Dear xinhui: Huiz i am very sorry i din get a chance to reply u thru email tdy coz there is a new colleague and i need to teach her and the "new" guy( came for 2 wks le) so abit busy ger.

yeah u also leave at 13/7 then we can go and play badminton, go library, go cafes, go parks together le!! :)

btw, there is this SHOPATHON 2007, held near suntec marina area, its to promote health and fitness, so we can go there and do exercise and enjoy the retail therapy!!! :) :) interested? its held on 7 & 8 JULY at 1pm. registration fee is $10. wanna go?? Anyone else who is reading this entry and interested to join please contact me. Thanks!! haha.. huiz u must also reply k. please go with me ......... >.<

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Back to today's entry... Why why tell me why, why cant i have more control over my temper? yeah someone will say it is all how you think, but i really feel very trapped and locked up this morning that i feel like the butterfly which died in July. That excruciating spin and shoulder pain, which indirectly leads to a migraine is not helping the situation either. I cant help having the feeling that the new ger and chloe cant wait for me to go coz there is simply no place , i repeat NO PLACE, for the new ger to sit. (wtf, such a big office, got money to hire pple, no money to add tables.) The new ger feels trapped and restricted, i feel pressured to leave earlier.
-_-" hell.. this is a very "caged" feeling. shit as i am typing, i can feel my shoulder muscles and back muscle feeling taut. crap.... this isnt a very nice feeling...

why why tell me why.Why do i have such uneasiness and why do i have so little control over temper. once things crops up, i start to throw my stapler, my big stapler, throw the elite chop, chop it numerous times on the wall, throw the mouse and kick the photocopier... how do i shake
off such uneasiness.. how do i learn to control my temper...

well, in the end chloe was quite scared to see me in this uncontrolled manner that she suggest that i go home, so i went off!!! took a precious half day to go rewind myself. I went to eat sushi buffet and went for a movie, went to visit some frenz and go feed mosquitoes with ming.. ahaha.. well... that's the only time i feel most at ease and happy. i am really thankful that ming is there to share his optimism with me....

so much so for today, i can only pray that tml is a better day.. with less work.. less scoldings.... no eagle eye chloe walking ard, no fat ass walking ard.....


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