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♥ Wednesday, June 15, 2005♥

No More Smooth-Sailing

TOdAy I began to realised that many things dont happened my way in life.. in short, i cant plan my life. I have been enjoying the benefit of planning my life for about 15 years. in primary school and secondary school, i can somehow plan what i want to achieve and how to go abotu achieveing my goals. Yet, after my o levels, i feel that there are so many things beyond my control. I cant get in Tjc, i cant get the sub com i wanted, i cant decide whether i want to stay in my cca or leave it. i cant plan my time too. there are so many incidents that i have settled myself with a timetable for revision and somehting unexpected comes about and destroy it. for example, i was supposed to be studying for my Lep paper 2 today. My project work came out with a meeting last min and i have to shift my schedule to a further time slot.but today failure to study was my fault as i couldn to find the mood to memorise those words. Moreover, i didnt take the initiative to study another subject in place of the time slot allocated for lep. So this means that i wasted yet another time slot, which means lesser time for studying.
i really need some form of mental strength for this month at least. i need to study to get my results, but my room is filled with so much desires and other things that cna be done in place of studying. For example, i should be studying now but i am online chatting and idling. I just feel like sleeping when i see my bed and i just kept finding titbits for snacks after every hour. i need to use these times to study in order to finish my syllabus. i need to have tt kind of mental strength to curb those desires. i think i should go out studying for my chemistry or what if not would never be able to finish my syallbus.
I feel that my jc life is gonna be very pathetic as in one which is just council and study all the way..


my donut-addict STOPS!